after all.. | raura

f i f t y - f i v e

"so, you're already at the babe stage? after one date?" i chuckled as i sat back on the chair next to ross. i dropped bella off at stormie's house and i came back here, thankfully, esther wasn't present.

he chuckled. "we've been dating for a while now. we just decided not to say anything until the time is right" he said. i nodded in response.

he stared at me for a few seconds, his mouth opened. "is it weird that-" he examined me more. "that what?" i asked. "that i always knew we were somehow destined to be together?" he searched my eyes. "you and i"

i looked down, feeling my cheeks flush. "i-i mean, doesn't everyone think that when they're in a relationship?" i slowly looked up. "no. with us i-it's different"

"we had a whole lot of fun. yes. but..sometimes you need to let go and move on for the best" i said, sadness clear in my voice. if it were in my hands, i wouldn't have ever broken up with ross. but it's god's plan i guess. (an: oo see what i did there)

"but look at us now! we're good friends in healthy relationships. and you know i always and only want the best for you, ross" i put my hand above his.

"i would be lying if i said i don't think you're the best for me, and that i didn't want you. because i do want you, laura. but i guess you're right. we don't always get what we want" he pursed his lips.

i think this is the first mature adult conversation we had since we broke up. i'm pretty sure it'll be the only one and ross'll be the same old broken, drinking, smoking ross when he's out of the hospital.

only this time,

he'll have a girlfriend.

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a few days later

"are you guys sure you don't want me to take her, i mean she'd be interrupting your private time and i—" ross cut me off with a chuckle. "laur, calm down, it'll be fine. i want esther and bella to bond. you know, for a healthier relationship in the future" he smiled, so innocently.

right. the future.

"b-" i was about to speak, then got interrupted again. "laura!" esther frustratedly exclaimed. "i-okay fine. i'll see you guys at seven" i twisted the door nob and looked at ross one last time as he nodded towards me with a reassuring smile before leaving.

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ross

"so, what do you want to do before bella wakes up?" i smile excitedly at esther. "you seem bubbly" she almost looked like she could snap someone's neck off.

she crossed her arms, eyeing me. "what is it babe?" i asked. "you and laura" she trailed her finger down my chest and watched it. "you seem..awfully close.." her british accent started getting stronger by the sentence, as she looked me right in the eye.

i scoffed, in a nice sort of funny way "well yeah, we've known each other for a while now.." i shrugged. "well, i don't like it" she copied my actions. "what do you mean you don't like it?" i frowned.

"you and her have dated in the past, if i'm not mistaken" she said like it was the most obvious thing in the world. "and i'm simply not comfortable with that" she shrugged again.

"and? what are you saying?" i asked. she sighed, standing up straighter and looking me in the eye.

"you have to chose" she smiled, evilly. i looked at her, unbelievably. "me..or her" she smirked. "are you kidding me right now esther? we're raising a baby together!" i almost screamed, using my hand/arm movements.

i always tend to use my arms when i'm mad. "bella needs both me and laura! and there's no way in hell im choosing you over her!" now i was full on shouting. "i cant believe you would have the audacity to ask a question like that" i scoffed, for real this time.

i could hear bella's cries slowly get louder and louder. "get out of my apartment" i put my hands on either side of my hips and looked at the floor in disbelief

how could i date someone like that

"just you wait, ross. just wait. you'll regret this!" i could her a lump in her voice. she backed up and stepped out, slamming the door shut as i rushed to bella.

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oof