Tom Holland Imagines

Tom Holland ; A Total Mess

"Bloody Hell, [Y/N]."

Tom stood at [Y/N]'s doorway, shocked to see her sprawled out on the floor with two empty wine bottles lying next to her. She looked an absolute mess. Her hair was disheveled, makeup smeared around her eyes, and her flannel buttoned wrong. Quickly shoving the spare key he had to her apartment into his pocket, he shut the door and waltzed over to her. Picking her up from the ground, "What the fuck are you doing?"

"Tom!" [Y/N] slurred happily, she clawed after him when he propped her against the couch. "Where you going?" She frowned as he walked away from her. Swaying, she put her hands on either side of her to keep her from toppling over, "I'm so glad you're here, Tom. I missed you!"

Shaking his head, he grabbed both bottles and showed them to her, "Did you drink both of these by yourself?" His voice was stern, he had never seen [Y/N] like this before. She was always so well composed. He could only ever recall one or two times when [Y/N] was drunk and even then she was completely coherent to answer questions.

Shrugging, [Y/N] hiccuped. "Give or take a few glasses." She waved one hand towards the wall that Tom now noticed had stains of red with broken glass on the floor. "I may or may not have, not have, thrown a few glasses." [Y/N] giggled but it wasn't anywhere near the kind of giggle, Tom was used to hearing. "I'm so fucking stupid."

Sighing, Tom decided that he'd deal with one thing at a time. Setting the wine bottles far from her reach, he sat down in front of her. Crossing his legs under him, he held her shoulders, forcing her to stare into his eyes. "What happened?"

She inhaled, "Well," [Y/N] started, hiccuping again. "[Ex's Name] broke up with me after three years of being together and get this," she hiccuped once more, "you ready for this? Over text. Over text, Tom. Who the fuck does that?" Running both hands over her face, she groaned. "You were right." She stated, "I never should have dated him."

Tom frowned, "I'm sorry, [Y/N]."

Shrugging, she laughed but not in a happy way. "I'm an idiot." Pointing downward at herself, she shook her head at her flannel. "I'm a fucking mess. Always a fucking mess." She tore at the buttons, getting frustrated, she yanked on them causing it to fly open and expose her bra and mid-section. "You know what he told me, Tom?" Running both hands through her hair, she laughed again. "That I'm, I'm clingy. And I expect too much from him." Throwing her hand in the air, she leaned forward, "Well no shit! I only just spent three years wasting my fucking time on him. Of course, I'd be, be clingy and expect things from him. That's what you do in relationships."

Tom tried really hard to ignore the fact that his really good friend was sitting looking pitiful as ever with her upper body on display. Running his own hand through his hair, he cleared his throat. "I think you've had enough to drink and it's time that you go to bed, yeah?"

"Pfft." Waving Tom off, she turned around against the couch and dug in between the cushions and pulled out a fifth of Jack.

"Did you? Did you hide alcohol in your couch?" Tom asked in disbelief.

"Uh duh." [Y/N] snapped. "I'm treated like shit, might as well act like it too. And I'm going to start by finishing this whole entire thing."

Tom lunged forward, yanking it from her hands. "No, [Y/N]." He snapped.

"Give. Me. Back. My. Booze. Holland."

He couldn't believe this. Out of all his friends, [Y/N] was nothing like this. She would occasionally have a glass of wine or perhaps a beer if someone could convince her. She was so proper and sophisticated. It blew his mind to see her a complete and total wreck. "You are not doing this to yourself. I refuse to take you to the bloody ER to get your stomach pumped. You're fucking insane, [Y/N]."

Tears started to fall down her cheeks, "You don't understand, Tom." She squeaked. "It hurts. I want it to stop. I've never felt this broken before."

Tom felt like an asshole for snapping at her. Of course she was hurting, she had been madly in love with the bloke. Tom hated [Ex's Name]. He was moody, incredibly cocky, and always talked down to [Y/N] as if she was a piece of gum on the bottom of his shoe. She deserved much better and he thought he had gotten through to her a few months ago but even he knew deep down inside he couldn't fight the feelings that had already settled in her bones.

"Come on," Tom quietly spoke, ushering her to take his hands.

Frowning, she shook her head. "Just give me the bottle and let me drink myself into-"

"-death?" Tom snapped.

Squinting her eyes, she looked away from him. "I was going to say oblivion but that could work too."

"Oh for fucks sake!" Tom half way yelled. He stepped forward, yanking her up gently but firm enough for her to be unable to fight back. He looked her dead in the eyes, "I understand you're hurting, I can see it written all over your face but he's not worth it, [Y/N]. No one is worth this," he started to speak softer. "I can't stand to see you like this, you're an absolute wreck, it's breaking my-it's upsetting."

"What else am I supposed to do?" She cried.

Letting go of her wrists, his hand quickly buttoned her shirt. Pulling her into a hug, he held her tight. He half smiled when she hugged him back tighter. He pressed his cheek to her head as she cried into his chest. Tom had never thought of [Y/N] anything more than just a friend until she started to date [Ex's Name]. It opened his eyes that the reason he didn't see her as anything more was because he had just gotten into the habit of always being with her and enjoying her presence. It was a weird battle he had with himself on whether or not he should express how he felt for [Y/N]. But, he wanted her to be happy and if happy meant being with that arrogant asshole, then so be it. He would just be there when it came tumbling down. And now that it was happening, it made him feel like an asshole because looking at her now with tear streaked cheeks and puffy eyes, he could have avoided all of this.

She wouldn't be feeling like it was necessary to drink herself into the grave or feel so broken. Tom would never make her feel that way if he would have just sucked it up and told her how he felt. Even he could read behind her joke of always saying that the two of them should just get married and live their lives happy whenever she'd get into a fight with [Ex's Name]. It could have worked out between him and her. But, again, Tom couldn't bring himself to admit his feelings when she'd seem so happy. Because he could never admit his feelings when she was crying on his shoulder, it was never the right moment and Tom was all about the right moment.

"Let's get you in bed, watch a movie, and get you to sleep." Tom guided her to her bedroom. He watched as she climbed into her bed, "I promise it'll get better."

[Y/N] felt so empty, it was a feeling she couldn't explain. "Will you stay, Tom? I'm afraid once you leave, I'll go back out there looking for something to numb me."

Tom nodded, "Of course, [Y/N]. You know I'll always stay." He kicked off his shoes and climbed in after her.