"Long distance getting in the way of what could be"
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Monday
1:10 PM
Today was the day I was supposed to be meeting my real mom. Was I excited? I don't even know. It was a mixture of feelings inside of me that I couldn't even describe. I mean, I'm meeting this woman for the first time in my life. How was I supposed to greet her? My thoughts were cut off by Ma and Zay yelling at each other.
"You can't squeeze cigarettes Zakiyah!" Ma yelled at her. She was holding a cigarette that was broken in half. "I only told you to hold it for a second! How did that even happen?"
"I didn't know!" Zay yelled back at her, "Dang! It's just a cigarette! You have more!"
Ma gave Zay a death glare. "That's not the point."
Zay was about to get in the car until she paused and looked in her shoulder bag. "Shoot! I left my phone in the house!" she ran back towards the house to get her phone.
"Hurry up girl!" Ma yelled after her
I got in the car and pulled out my phone. I wasn't myself today because I was experiencing something new.
"So...how do you feel Dia? Anything you wanna talk about?" Ma asked me as she started the car.
"Nope. I'm fine." I said even though I knew I wasn't.
Zay jogged back to the car with her phone in her hand and a bag of Hot Crunchy Curls.
"You didn't bring me anything to eat?" I asked her. I was hungry too.
"Whoops" she said sarcastically
"Don't worry Dia, I have to stop at the gas station anyway" Ma said to me
Zay got in the car and we drove off.
As we drove off, I looked out the window and was stuck in my thoughts. My thoughts were cut off once again by someone tapping my hand.
"You okay? You're quiet" Zay asked me
"I'm alright. Just still alot to process." I said to her
"I understand." She rubbed my hand.
After that, we drove in silence and neither Ma nor Zay asked me anymore questions. We stopped at the gas station and I went into the little store and bought me some Creme Soda, a bag of Triple Tangy Cheese chips, and a bag of Hot Fries. We finally were at the jail.
"We're here" Ma said as we pulled up into the parking lot. The jail looked so dead. Like, I never saw a jail before at all, but I was expecting it to at least have some type of color to it. But why would such a sad place have color to it anyway?
We walked out the car made our way into the jail. I'm not gonna lie, I was scared as hell because the inmates looked really scary. I never thought people could look that way. There were some that looked like they wanted to die. There were some that looked like they could eat people. There were even some that looked scared like me. I guessed that they were the ones who weren't here for a long time.
We finally came to the area where the phones were. Ma rubbed my back and smiled at me. I smiled back at her, but deep down inside I was very nervous.
A guard came and was leading a very short dark skinned woman in hand cuffs towards the other side. The woman looked just like me and was short like me also. She looked tired and her face showed no expression, it was like she was dead.
"15 minutes" the guard said. Wow, that was not enough time to talk to my birth mother for the first time in my life. But okay, I guess the guards here weren't supposed to have a heart about things like that.
My mother picked up the phone and put it to her ear. I did the same.
"Hello?" I said
"Hi there Nadia" she said to me. Her voice was raspy
"Hi"
"You got so big and you look just like me." She looked over at Ma and Zay. "Is that Jasmine and Zakiyah over there?"
"Yes" Ma said
"Thank you for raising my baby, Jasmine. I owe you so much" she said to her. "And Zakiyah you are so beautiful just like your mother."
"Thanks" Zay said
"No problem Andrea, you know I got you" Ma said
She looked back at me and smiled. She was really pretty, that's why I was pretty.
"I know you have alot of questions for me and I know you were shocked when you found out the news. I'm sorry, it was my idea to keep from you." She said. I honestly didn't know what to say back, like I don't know this woman but I didn't wanna be rude.
"It's okay. I understand" I said
Her eyes lit up and her face expression was so bright like a little kid when they're handed a bunch of candy.
"You do?" She asked
"I mean, yea"
"That means alot to me. It really does. Do you know why I murdered your father?"
"Yea, Ma told me"
"Yes, I didn't exactly mean to kill him. I only meant to hurt him badly and land him in the hospital but mistakes happen."
"What he did was wrong" I said
"It was. But nobody deserves to get their life taken away by another person" she sighed
"7 minutes" the guard interrupted. Rude ass!
"I just want you to know that I love you, Nadia. You're my daughter and I will always love you until the day I die. I'm sorry I couldn't be in your life like I was supposed to. Some things just don't work in your favor, you know?"
"Yes I know. I love you too, you're my mother. How couldn't I love you? I just think I should let you know something since we don't have enough time to catch up on anything else." I said to her. Best to tell her now, she has the right to know.
"What is it honey?"
"I'm a lesbian" I said
She smiled at me, "I knew that already, I am too"
Huh? How the hell could she be a lesbian if she married a man which was my father?
"3 minutes!"
"Your father was a transgender. He was born a woman and I was there with him while he had the surgery done on him. I didn't agree with what he was doing, but I supported him and still loved him for who he was. Man or woman."
"Wow. I never knew!" I was happy inside to learn that my mother was just like me. I guess they're right when they say that the apple doesn't fall too far from the tree.
"Let's go Warren" the guard said to my mother. Andrea Warren. I might name my daughter that...if I have one.
"Bye!" I shouted after her
She looked back. "It's see you later, Nadia." She winked at me
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This chapter made me sad and happy at the same time! I was happy that Nadia finally got to meet her mom but I was sad when they had to separate. Do you think Nadia would visit her mom more often now? What are your thoughts on Nadia's dad being a transgender? Let a sister know! Vote and comment!
Love,
Remii 😘
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