My Team10 ✓

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Savannah's POV

I woke up to the sound of a peaceful house, which is quite a surprise. I sat up, stretching I made my way down the hall and to the kitchen. My phone was still cracked, but I didn't forget the message Anthony left me. He's such a sweetheart. I honestly don't know what to do about Emilio. We've been dating for 4 months, and I think I do love him I just don't know what to think. it hurts me aswell because the fans keep shipping me with multiple people. All I ever see anymore is #Sake, #Santhony, #Sivan. It's driving me haywire, crazy to the rim. I barely see anymore #Semilio stuff. I know that there still are shippers, but it just hurts me when people ship me with people I'm not with.

I really don't know what to do anymore. I kept receiving texts from the number telling me to keep away from Emilio, to kill myself, to stop being so extra and leave. I couldn't take it. Not many people know what's happening, or that im receiving the text messages. Some people know, when they ask I tell them that they stopped coming when they were only getting worse. I wanted to cry, I just wanted to curl up in a ball and cry my eyes out. Maybe nobody cared. Maybe just, maybe.

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The front door opened. I lifted my head up to see Jake walk in. "Hey Jakey, why you look so lonely?" He looked at me "Hey Sav." He smiled warmly. That smile kills me. What? "What are you looking at?" He walked over, placing his head on my shoulder.

"Oh nothing, just Instagram." I shrugged. "Woah! What happened to your phone?" He lifted his head and sat down next to me. Should I tell him, or should I not? I bit my lip. "Oh consideration, huh?" I nodded towards him, he always knew. "Yeah." I sighed. "You can tell me Savannah, I'm only going to give my honest opinion. I smiled. "Well.." "Go on."

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"And then the texts keep coming and coming, getting worse and worse. I had already been annoyed so I left. When I came back to the house hours later, I saw Emilio making out with a girl on the couch. I dropped my stuff and went to my room crying. I heard them yelling, and Emilio came up apologizing saying it was his ex and that he loved me and no one else. I accepted and let him leave, I was going to go to bed later on, deciding to check my phone Anthony had left me a cute message that made me smile. Waking up the next morning the texts got more worse until I just decided to delete the number. I'm also tired of being shipped with so many people! I feel like nobody can accept that I'm with Emilio, but I really feel hurt from the other night that I don't know if I want to be in a relationship anymore, and even if I broke up with him and moved on straight away people will call me a hoe, maybe I should just cut. The line.." I cried explaining everything to Jake.

It felt so much better to let everything off of my chest though.

Jake hugged me, "Please Savannah don't kill yourself and most definitely don't ever hurt yourself. We all care about you, everyone in Team10 including me loves you, your family loves you, your fans love you. Everyone around you loves you. You, Savannah are one of the absolute best things to happen to all of us. Do you understand?" I smiled into Jake's shoulder, "Thank you Jakey, and yes I understand. Thank you so much." I lifted my head out of Jake's arms, and without realizing.

I kissed him.

It wasn't like any other kiss though, and it didn't feel accidental. It felt strong, yet passionate. It was deep and soothing. His lips tasted slight of cherry. They were slightly chapped making me want more of them. Jake kissed back surprisingly. The kiss deepened slightly as Jake's hand found my head and was digging into my scalp.

We let go leaving my heart to hurt and my lips wanting more. I felt so bad for Emilio, but technically he cheated on me first, and I wasn't cheating. Was I? I looked into Jake's eyes, he smiled slightly, but with guilt. "I'm sorry, I know you're with Emil-" I didn't let him finish, I kissed him again, surprising him as he leant back, digging into the kiss roughly, but hotly.

Our lips left oneanother once more. I looked down in shame. "I shouldn't have went into it, I'm sorry Savannah." I smiled slightly. "No Jake, it's fine it was me anyway. Technically I'm not cheating because Emilio did it first." I looked at Jake with a smile. He smiled back, "If you say so." My smile soon left, "Oh, we can't tell anyone though. Okay? Please?" Jake smiled and sat up, "This is our little secret then." I smiled at his words, but felt pain in my heart.

Was I falling for Jake?

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I was still happy with Emilio, his smile brightening up my day, his personality describing my moods, his laugh forever adorable, and his lips? Unreadable. I cant feel his love when he kisses me, I cant feel his pain, I cant sense anything. I didn't see the love in his eyes.

Why would he say he loves me, then lie about it?

"Emilio, can I talk to you? Alone." He looked over to me, "Uh huh one sec mami." He licked his lips as he looked into his video game deeply. I sighed, obviously annoyed. "Hurry up!" He yelled as his car crashed, annoyed he got up. "Okay, what? Let's go." He huffed out of the room, me slowly following him behind.

We walked into my room and I closed the door behind me. "What's wrong?" Concern in his voice. My heart eased with pain. "I want to talk." "Okay?" He sat down, looking at me. "About?" I rubbed my arm nervously. "Us." Tension rose over the room. "Savannah, you know I love you right?" I bit my lip. He noticed. "Shh.. Savannah." He stood up and started coming closer. "No Emilio stop. Please. I... think we should break up.." I bit my lip once more. Emilio's arms drooped off of mine. "Why?" His voice cracked. My heart hurt and I wanted to cry, but I felt somewhat confident.

"See, I caught you making out with your supposive ex. Then saying she was blackmailing you. I do know how to take care of myself, I do it everyday. You say you love me, but I don't see it. I don't see the love in your eyes, I don't feel the love. I mean I love you, but do you really love me Emilio? If you did, you would show it, I would feel it, see it. I just feel like maybe, we won't work anymore. At least not now." I bit my lip once more. Silence rose over the room

Emilio sighed, "I guess you're right, I should've said no when Amanda made out with me, but instead I kissed back." That hit me hard. "You were crying, I felt horrible so I came to you. I told you I loved you and you accepted. Yeah, it's true. If you love someone, if they love you. You see it, you feel it. I just want you to be happy because I do love you, just not exactly in that way.." He rubbed his arm awkwardly.

I felt the pain rise in my chest, my heart, but I was happy and relieved with myself. "Best friends?" I smiled and held out my hand for him to shake. He smiled happily. "Yep." We shook our hands, hugged, and Emilio left the room. I smiled to myself.

Maybe I could live single.

Or give Jake a chance.

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Chapter 14 out now! Comment questions below for a future QnA!