Can Hurt Heal

chapter five

LaNyiah

As we got into the car I started or and my radio blast future - pie so we bouncing and being silly cuc my baby daddy Chris is in this song. I pull up to a stop light and let loose when the beat drop. Once it turns green I continue driving.

"Aye sis, let's get snacks. " Nia said

I nod my head to the beat getting off the freeway to go to the Walmart by our house. Once we get there I park at the front and we hop out. But the song is still blasting and Nia being Nia, got out twerking and dropping it low. You would think she spends her life on a club but she's never been. I laugh so hard at her then join. We dance till the song is over cit on the alarm and then head in Walmart.

"Aye MA, y'all was fye, can we get y'all number" some guy asked licking his lips. He was cute but no
"No we're good, but thanks for the compliment handsome have a good day. " I replied pulling Nia along
"Nae, why you always shutting niggas down? You fine as fuck and you be playing yourself" Nia said
"OK high yella Remy MA, lol. But ion have time. Let's get these snacks" I said brushing the subject off

She just bored her head and then we got popcorn, chips, juice, pops, ice cream, candy bars, and snack cakes then headed to the check out the girl was giving us looks then her ratchet came out.

"Damn, y'all bout to have a fat girl moment all these snacks" she said popping gum

It hurt my feelings but enraged Nia and she went off.

"Bitch I know you right eye ass can't see with them 1902 ass glasses but I'm thick Bitch it's a difference and my sister thicker than snicker that's why the niggas in here need water cuz they be staring instead of stocking. Now Bitch I make more than you on your off day so go to hell and ring my shit up" Nia said in a calm voice

I had no idea what to say she said it already I just swiped my black card and the girls eyes bucked when it went through, I mean did she think it wouldn't. It's a black card. I laughed at her facial expression as Nia pushed the basket and a manager came over. I looked at the tag and it was the store manager at that.

"Do we have a problem" the manager asked
"Yes your employees don't know how to keep their comments to themselves and just do their Job." I said walking off

I heard the conversation as I was walking off and she just go suspended and has a hearing of she will even keep her job. After my call to corporate she can hang that up. We arrived at the car and loaded everything and then hoped back in. I turned to a mellow station and India Arie - ready for love came on. And I wanted to change it but Nia was into it and I begin to sing with her.

I felt every verse and cord and strong she stroked and I lost myself in the song as I hung my heart out. I'm ready but afraid. Dudes aren't shit. I learned that the hard way. I wish my college experience was different and I didn't fear being around people especially men. I wish I was smaller and lovable I wish I wasn't afraid all the time. I wish my daddy was hear to hold and protect me. I've always been a daddy's girl and Nia was my mom's hip baby. Wherever mom was so was Nia. Don't get me wrong she loved us both strongly I just stayed to myself when the billing started in middle school.

My dad didn't care he was gone bother me and hold me and make me eat regardless. He always said to me
"Baby daddy loves you and always will and when you find a real man like me he will love you too"  He always reminded me I was beautiful and my size didn't make me. They have always just been words because I was the one being bullied. I didn't realize we were home till Nia screamed my name. Damn I gotta stop doing that .