Can Hurt Heal

Chapter twenty-two

LaNyiah

I woke up to juicy lips all over my face. My face hurt but the kisses were so soft. I hissed a little when my jawline was kissed. the lips landed again and just sit there. Seems this small gesture had my heart beat racing and my body heating up. I opened my eyes and saw Jay lean back and smile at me.

"Good morning beautiful " He spoke I turned my head because I knew my cheeks were burning bright red. "Hey." I whispered, I honestly can't wait till my jaw heals geeze. "Don't hide that beautiful face from me. How are you feeling?" He asked looking in my eyes, tryna read me, and the shyness took over.

I felt like he was reading into my soul, and it scared me. I closed my eyes to keep tears from falling, but that didn't work cuz one of the Lil bastards slowly fell down my face. I feel so weak. I've always held my cool and now, I'm so broken all I do is cry. My dadda said. "Girls cry sometimes but you can't be no pussy just cuz you have one." so I always kept things to myself. Didn't wanna disappoint the big man.

My sister has the strength I use to fake. Now I feel wide open and vulnerable. I miss the old quiet me, the one that fought if needed; and stayed to herself; the one that was still pure. He stole so much from me

"Baby, stop thinking so hard " Jay said wiping more tears. See, he always tryna be in my head. "Umm, Jaylen go and Umm get something to eat, and take a bath, and relax. You have been up here almost none stop." I said. It was true he went to the cafeteria and back. He was literally on his last pair of clothes he had Ty bring. He looked at the ceiling silent like he was having a major conversation with himself, rather he would listen to me or not.

"Please, you can pack more clothes and come back I'll be ok." I said to him not making eye contact because I wasn't sure who I was trying to convince. "Iight baby, but Storm gone be up here with you." he said kissing me and pulling his phone out.

If he could keep his luscious lips to himself. But I have a feeling he's enjoying the fact I can't really talk shit to him. He slowly got his arm from under me, I'm sure it's numb from my fat ass, but once he stood he stretched and he didn't have on a shirt. I caught myself staring at his chest that was tatted down to his abs to the V line that was like a road map.

Awe hell naw. LaNyiah you tripping ma'am. Men are not to be trusted, but how can I feel like this when he seems different. I turned on my side to keep from looking and it hurt so bad, I screamed in pain grabbing my ribs as tears began to pour.

"Damn bae, turn on the other side I gotta shirt on now. You know you gone be kissing all over this body one day. And ima definitely be kissing and licking and leaving marks on yours." He said smiling but I was hurting. He saw the tears and stopped laughing while pressing the nurse button.
"I'm tired of the medicine, please Jay." I said holding my side and balling up. "Ma, when you better you don't have to take anymore meds til you have our kids, but I'm not about to sit here and watch you be in pain and cry." he spoke kissing my temple

What the hell!? Nigga keep your lips to yourself sometimes geeeze. I thought as I heard him on the phone.

"Aye Storm, come up here with my girl... Yeah man she making me go home and shower and shit... I refuse to leave her here alone... Yeah see you in 5." he spoke hanging up. He turned and looked at me as if he knew what I was thinking.

"Baby, I trust Storm he not gone hurt you. Do you feel OK with him here?" he askedas his voice was filled with concern. "Yes, Jaylen." I spoke hissing as the nurse put meds in my IV and this time it burned. It had never done that before.

He looked at me and I pressed the nurses button again quickly. She returned and asked what was wrong "This time the medicine burns, it has never done that before." I said looking at my arm, and rubbing it as if I could rub the burn away. "The doc wrote a new script that should help more without the extra strain on your kidneys." Nurse Porscha spoke."OK, thank you." I said still rubbing my arm