Can Hurt Heal

Chapter seven

LaNyiah

I hear my sister blasting music it kind of got me hype, As I jumped up out my bed doing a shimmy all the way to the bathroom, but could no longer hear the music when I closed the door, so I turned on my system and turned on my Jill Scott of course. As I ran my bath and brushed my teeth. (I pressed play) comes to the light began to play as I I sang. I stripped out my clothes while the music somehow got into my soul, as I felt as if the bass had became my heart beat.

I got in the tub as I started singing and scrubbing by luscious body, then I my emotions got the better of me as I started crying while scrubbing my body harder, as the scenes of him violating me as he rammed into me mercilessly; which made me scrub even harder, then angrily threw my bath sponge the towel and sobbed, after my I finally gained back control of my emotion and the crying finally subsided and the song was over, I  looked at my arms and chest and they were red and raw from me scrubbing so hard. I stood in the shower as the water went down the drain, I turned on the cold water to sooth my skin. Once it was no longer cold I stepped out and put on my thin long sleeve v neck shirt, and my black skinny jeans, which just so happen to make my booty sit out a little bit more than I liked, so I pulled my shirt down further and it did the trick. I then put on my gold cross necklace my dad gave me and Nia alike. I then put on my my gold studded earrings, along with my white chucks, and headed down stairs.

I slipped a banana and a Gatorade in my bag, as I had my earbuds in my ears, and was listening to Tyrese - one and just thinking if I'll ever be able to love, and be able healed from what Trey did to me.

I was so deep in thought I didn't even know Nia was talking to me till she touched me and my heart stop and I thought I had died.

"Ahhhh...." Nae screams with her hand across her heart as she spins around to face a concerned Nia.  "What's wrong Pooh?" asked Nia.
"Nothing." said Nae as they both bent down to pick up Nae things that she dropped.

"If it's truly nothing wrong, then why were you spacing out just now, when I was calling you and why did you scream???" Nia asked with her hands crossed over her bosom, with one eyebrow raised not really believing that its nothing wrong with her.  "Nothing is wrong with me and I wasn't spacing out Pineapple, I was thinking about these classes I'm taking. I am thinking of maybe dropping something Idk, and as for me screaming, you just scared the shit out of me. You can't be creeping up on me like that.... You know I got fast reflexes, and I could have accidently karate chopped your ass in the throat by and then 'THE PEOPLE' (Child Protective Services) would be all up in our shit thinking I was finna try to kill you." Joked Nae which in turn made Nia laugh whole heartedly.  "Hahahah. . ." Chuckled Nia, "You silly as shit sis. . . Ok, Imma let you slide this time." Replied Nia as she pointed at Nae to make emphasis on letting her slide, then continued to say, "Because I don't want nan one of us to be late for school." Replied Nia as she handed Nae her keys. "I know that's the fuck right." said Nae as she passed Nia some keys, the look on Nia's face made me forget about all I was thinking about. I just love to see my sister happy. She's the reason I hold on to my sanity. If it wasn't for her I would have went crazy a long time ago.

After she left in her new ride after making us fall of course, I headed to school. I thought about how today 7/10 would have been my due date. My sister would have made a great aunt.