Finding My Way Back To You

Chapter 12

ARIANNAS POV

No one even understands. No one knows what I'm going through.

So many people try to help me, but I don't need anyones help getting through this.

What I feel is like my heart got ripped out of my chest, and someone stomped on it multiple times. I think I have had so much difficulty and stress in the past, it seems ordinary to me now.

Harry promised me he would never leave me again, and he would protect me. Thats why he needs to come back to everyone he loves and everyone that cares about him, and me. Once that gunshot was heard, my life changed completely. It seems that sound is heard in my mind multiple times a day. Even flashbacks of that day wake me up in the middle of the night.

I hate how people think of me, and how I am now. Everyone thinks I'm just a little baby. Like I always need someone with me  everyday. Whoever shows up at the apartment just sits there the whole night. Once I get home I go into our room, and sleep. I dont think I need anyone at the apartment.

Everyone is constantly asking me if I need them at the hospital, at the apartment, anywhere.

Now, at the moment, everyone is at our apartment, for some reason. Even my sisters came. They just all showed up about a half hour ago.

"Arianna we can come with you." Emily tells me.

"I don't need anyone." I say.

"We can drive you?" Zayn asks.

"No" I say.

"Then we will come with you." Niall tells me.

"No!" I yell, standing up from the couch. "I don't need anyone with me at the hospital okay? I think I can handle it, I have for the past three weeks."

"Arianna, we just want to make sure you will be okay." Daniella tells me.

"I am okay! I'm sick of all of you treating me like I'm five years old! I can handle things on my own." I shout. Everyone just sits there shocked.

"Calm down." Emily tells me.

"No!" I yell, louder. "I don't need someone here every night, I don't need anyone at the hospital with me. I get you guys care but it gets fucking annoying after a while considering I feel like I can't breathe because at least one of you is on top of me asking me if I am okay!"

Everyones eyes are wide as they just sit there.

"Now I am going to the hospital." I say, walking and getting my bag and keys. "Would anyone like to hold my hand while I walk downstairs?"

They just sit there, not saying a word. I open the door and slam it when I get out. I literally run down the stairs and I get to the lobby.

I stop and go to the desk where a middle aged woman sits.

"How may I help you Ms. Anderson?" she asks.

"Who has been paying for my rent?" I ask her. 

"Let me check." she says, opening up a drawer.

"Your friends." she tells me, closing the drawer.

"Okay next time they try to pay, don't let them please." I tell her.

"Of course" she smiles.

"Thanks" I tell her, walking out the door.

I get in my car and drive to the hospital.

When I get there, I park my car and walk inside.

"Excuse me?" the woman at the front desk says.

"Yes?"

"Where are you going?" she asks me. She must be new here because everyone else just lets me go upstairs without a word.

"Harry Styles' room." I reply.

'Oh okay." she nods and I walk past the desk to the elevators. I wait, but the elevator takes long so I take the stairs again.

When I get upstairs, the nurses greet me and I walk right into Harrys room.

I put my bag on the side, and sit down in the chair beside his bed.

I examine his face, seeing its the same as yesterday. All of a sudden, I see his eyes flutter.

A smile spreads across my face, just thinking that maybe, just maybe he may wake up soon.

The doctors told me that even though he cant see or really think, he can still hear.

"So, its been about three and a half weeks since the accident." I say, grabbing his hand. "The doctors told me that you can hear everything but not see or think at all. They also told me that the more we talk to you, and tell you to fight hard, it can increase your chance of waking up. Harry, ever since you got shot and ended up in this coma, my life has changed. I don't smile as much as I used to. I don't laugh at all. It seems that your really the only person that understands me. Everyone thinks I cant handle this, but I can. I accepted what happened to you." I continue, wiping a tear. "I just wanted to tell you that, Alexis and Stephanie are in jail and Lucas is in a mental institution. Alexis and Stephanie are going where Lucas is after about a year or two."

I stay silent now, just listening to the monitors beeping.

"Okay, I am gonna leave, but I will be right back." I say, standing up. "I'm just going to visit someone real quick and I'll be back. I promise"

I grab my bag and leave the room.

"Arianna your leaving already?" Nurse Nancy asks me.

"I'll be right back, I'm just going somewhere really quickly" I tell her, as the elevator doors open.

"Okay sweetie" she smiles, and I get in.

The doors close and I take my phone out seeing I have 11 messages and 6 missed calls. Its from everyone. The messages consist of, where are you? Are you at the hospital? Arianna answer. Why can't you just tell us where you are? Stop being difficult.

I roll my eyes, putting my phone back into my bag as the elevator doors open.

I exit the hospital, and walk to my car. I get into my car, leaving the parking lot and getting on the small road.

Before I go, I stop by the flower shop and pick up a bouquet or flowers. I get back into my car and drive there.

When I make it here, I park my car on the side, walking across the grass.

I kneel down, running my thumb over his picture.

"Hey Kyle." I say, looking down. "I haven't really visited you in a while but I came now. Harry hasn't woken up yet, I'm pretty sure you can see from up in heaven." I sniffle.

"I can't believe your gone." I whisper, multiple tears running down my face. "I wish you were still here. But we cant change that now your not with us"

I sit there crying for a few minutes, before I finally have the courage to get up.

I peck the picture on the stone, and get up. "Bye Kyle" I whisper, once more running my finger over the picture. I walk to my car, and leave the cemetery..

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