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Clingy?

 So many people hate those clingy girls who once you talk to them they won't stop talking to you. I hate to say this but I'm pretty sure I'm a bit too clingy. But I can't help it it's not out of "love" or any of the crap. I want more friends. Ever since I moved to Germany I haven't had many friends. It's probably because they're all military brats. I'm used to real people. people who don't whine when they don't get what they want.

All the people here are fake. mean. bitches. I recently broke off my friendship with my best friend Ben. He thought I was too controlling.and possessive. I guess I am but I really can't help it I wasn't into him or anything. He was just my bestfriend. I regret braking off our friendship. He was there to drag me out of my bed and make me go outside. To help me when I was down. he was a great friend I will admit sometimes when I was pissed of he would seem annoying but other than that he was awesome.

I wish we were sill best friends. Anyway to the topic. I'm just clingy because I'm afraid they'll leave me as a friend because I'm never with the. So I make sure I'm always bugging them. But that get's on so many peoples nerves. Then they don't want to be my friend 'cause I'm clinging to them for dear life...

I wonder sometimes, if I wasn't as clingy would I have more friends? What if I could get rid of my anger issues, would they like me then? Would people not ditch me for other friends like everyone does? Everyone but Kira she never ditched me. And Ben...Would it have been better if me and Ben were still friends?

I want to be his friend again but he hates me now...Maybe that's what happened to Grayson. Grayson was also my best friend I guess I got to clingy and now he hates me too. Sucks he was a great friend and he was pretty good at drawing. Grayson if your reading this ( which your probably not) then I just want to say sorry for whatever I did and you were a great friend. And same for Ben.

Q: Do you wish you were still friends with someone?