[SAD]
My heart was beating out of my chest. My head had a throbbing pain in it. I held the pain as I walked home trying to erase what I had just seen. My best friend, the boy I was in love with for the past 17 and a half years of my life, Liam Payne, got a girlfriend. I walked in on him as they were in bed together and she was kissing him passionately. Why didn’t I tell him earlier? Why am I so stupid? The rain drops on my cheeks blended in with the tears that were falling heavily. “Screw this!” I shouted.
I heard footsteps behind me. Was it possible someone was following me? I turn around but no one was there. I decide to pick up my pace as the rain started to fall harder and harder. My legs were weak as I ran and they were shivering and shaking. I ran to the place where we used to hang out. Just me and him. I remember when I snuggled to his side and fit perfectly.
I finally reached it as I stared into the river. There was the highest rock. The highest and most dangerous rock leading to a huge pile of stones. I scrambled as I ran up to it. I was halfway at the edge when someone screamed.
“NO!”
I turned around to find Liam staring at me with widened and shocked eyes. “WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU’RE DOING?”
“I.. I give up Liam. You never loved me the way I love you… You don’t understand what you are to me, do you? You never thought that from the moment we were kids, we had this special bond between us, do you? I love you Liam. You’re everything to me. You’re my family, my life, my everything. But me? Im just a speck of dust. I’m sorry Liam…”
Liam was still wide-eyed but his jaw dropped to the floor. “Why didn’t you say anything? Don’t you know I’m in love with you as well? I’ve tried getting over you but I couldn’t. I didn’t want to hurt you… I love you.”
He started making his way up to me as I wiped the tears from my eyes. He finally reached where I was standing and wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me towards him. He smiled at me as he pressed his lips against mine, making the sparks fly. It was perfect; how our lips synced together in one special movement. This is the moment I’ve been waiting for my entire life. He pulled out of the kiss and started tracing his lips against my jaw line and down my neck, trailing to my collarbone. He made my body go crazy and want more. I giggled and kissed the hollow space under his ear and he let out a soft groan. I giggled and brushed my nose against it. “Found your weak spot, eh?” I said giggling.
“Shh,” he said before he smashed his lips into mine. We had a small make out session before he slipped his hand into mine. “Can we get off this thing? Its making me worry like hell…”, he said blushing.
I nodded and gave him a small peck under his ear. He was finally…mine. His grip on my hand was so tight. I turned on my heel and took a step, not noticing the slippery green algae on the rock.
The next second, I was hanging from the rock as my feet dangled in the air. Liam was holding my hand as he panicked trying to pull me up.
“AHH!" I screamed as my shoe slipped. After an unexpected length of time, it finally made a sound as it hit the rocks.
“L-Liam don’t leave me!" I said as the tears rolled down my face.
“Don’t think I’m ever going to!" said Liam tears forming in my eyes. My left hand hit my thighs as it dropped from Liam. The only thing helping me up was my hand bonded with Liam.
“Liam I love you," I cried out.
“I love you more!" he shouted. I put my elbow on the rock for support to push me up but it was too late. I was too weak as I slipped, my entire body floating in thin air as I finally landed on the rock. “NOOOOO!" I heard a scream.
I felt liquid pouring out of my head, my body feeling weak as my eyelids drooped as a sudden darkness took over my body. My last thought? I love you Liam.
(Liam)
It’s been three days after her death. Three days since I last smiled, since I last felt anything. I feel a numbness now. I haven’t eaten anything. What’s the point of living anymore? Funeral in the mornings and sleep at night. That’s all. No happiness, no nothing. 3 days since I last heard those 3 words that changed my life… 3 days since we shared our first and last kiss…
I came back from the funeral and threw myself on the bed as I pulled out her necklace from my pocket. It had her initials on it. I held it close to my heart until it suddenly clicked in my head. I’ll do it.
Entangling the necklace between my fingers, I made my way to the bathroom where the medicine cabinet was kept. I opened the cabinet with trembling hands and pulled out the pills. I quietly took them to my room where I set them next to the glass of water. I brought a notepad and a pencil and began writing.
“Hey guys.
If you’re reading this, I’m probably dead. I have to keep my promise to her. Her last words were “Don’t leave me Liam & I love you Liam."
I’ve been in love with her my entire life… I never had the guts to admit it. Who knew. She was right. We did have this special bond. And I have to keep that bond. I love her too much and I need to prove it. I’m giving up my life for her. But she’s worth it. Worth every single thing. So when I die, please don’t cry over me. I’m happy. I’ll be with her. She’d be in my arms and I’d kiss her for forever. I want you to know that if I continue to live, the pain will kill me sooner or later. I loved life. But without her, it’s not worth it. I love you beautiful. I’m coming for you.”
I couldn’t write anymore. My tears blurred my vision and I set the notepad as I took the medicine and pushed on the top as it opened revealing the white pills. I overdosed and gulped them with water as I set my head on the pillow. “I’m almost there babe,” I whispered as I managed a smile, “I love you.”
