The Wedding Planner

Chapter 19

"Jimin?" I asked then Wonho carried Sungjae for me. Jimin stood up and hugged me immediately.

I could feel his tears flowing on my back making the back of my shirt wet. "Jimin are you alright?" I asked and he shook his head that was buried on my shoulder. He hugged me so tightly that I froze in my place. "What happened to you?" I asked but as expected, he didn't answer me.

Wonho gently put Sungjae on a chair to let him sober up a little then left the room for some privacy.

I then heard Jimin mumble words in my shoulder but I couldn't understand what they were. I could hear what he was saying but I couldn't understand. "What did you say?" I asked just to be sure. He then moved his chin to my shoulder and said "I don't want to let you go".

I then remembered what Wonho once told me:

"Next week Sunday"

"Then you have that much time to let him go or hold onto him"

I stood frozen in my spot because I felt so clueless on making a choice. When the time comes, I'll have no more choice but to let him go. Time is ticking, but I'll just have to beat it to the chase.

But I was still frozen there because I had no guts to push him away. He's getting married. He's getting married. He's getting married Chorong, get this into your head. I kept reminding myself but it didn't seem to work, my head and my body weren't cooperating.

The instructions in my head weren't being executed by my body because I had no guts to push Jimin away. Next week Sunday, he's going to get married and that'll be the end of the line of me crushing on this one man that's hugging me.

Just push him away. But I can't. Just push him. But I can't. The debate in my head seemed to go on for so long until I finally made my choice. I can't have him. I took a deep breath and pushed him away.

His eyes were so full of sadness, pain, and confusion that I couldn't stand it anymore. "I'm sorry Jimin" I said trying to fight the tears that were threatening me to fall. "Why?" he asked "Why do you attract me then just push me away?".

"Because I have to let you go Jimin, it hurts me more than it hurts you" I said then moved his hands from his shoulders when Sungjae suddenly got up. "Chorong? Is that you?" he asked and I answered "it's me, come on, I'm driving you home".

Sungjae stood up and I lead him out of the room and out of the bar where I found Wonho leaning on my car. "Chorong! What happened in there?" he asked. "I let him go" I said and looked at my feet as we placed Sungjae at the backseats.

"You made your choice Chorong" Wonho said. "By the way, where do you live?" I asked. "It's kinda far, but I'll stay with Sungjae until he wakes up" he said. "Really? Don't tell him about Jimin" I said and Wonho nodded.

"Don't worry, I won't tell him but when were at the office, you'll have to tell me everything" Wonho said and sat in the passenger's seat in front.

I dropped both of them off at Sungjae's house, which I know the address of because he worked for me for a year, then drove back home. It's been a while since I went home without anyone else coming with me or something.

I dropped myself on my bed, sadly remembering what I had done to the guy I had a crush on for four years. But it was for the best, for the best for Jimin and for the best for me. Now I can fully accept that he's going to get married.

You fool, you'll only fully accept it when he's married.

I hit my own head scolding myself then drifted to sleep.

Then my one and only stupid alarm went off and I went to work in the early morning. I rode the elevator up until my office and opened the door. I expected to see early Sungjae there but instead, I found a sleeping Wonho.

I held his shoulders and shook him to wake him up. "Wonho! Wake up!" I said then he got up abruptly and said "I'm here!". "Why are you here so early?" I asked. "Sungjae said I'm supposed to be here early" he said then slouched on the chair.

"It's only 8 am, and my schedule is at 1 pm so I'll just wait here until then" I said and laid perfectly down on my chair. "So, explanation on last night?" Wonho asked. "Was that supposed to be like homework?" I asked and sat at my desk.

"Yes, now present your homework" Wonho answered, playing along. "Well, he just hugged me and I made my choice Wonho, I'm letting him go. I won't hold on anymore" I said trying to sound strict and stern with my decision. Wonho smirked "but the question is, are you sure about your choice?".

"Of course I am, I'll beat time to the chase because either way, letting go is my only option" I said. "Sure it is, anyway, you've got a schedule at 1 o'clock which is the one and only girly wedding dress picking" Wonho made his voice higher to imitate the voice of a girl.

"Curse you Wonho, it's not my fault girls like dresses" I said, defending myself. "You know, I know a lot of good looking and good quality guys, so you can get over this Jimin guy" Wonho said while twirling a pen.

"You mean the guys you worked with back at the bar?" I asked while raising an eyebrow. "Yeah, they are cool guys and still single" Wonho said. "I'm not easily tempted Wonho, but the Hyungwon guy looked cute" I admitted.

"What about Kihyun? He cooks great ramen, if he was a girl, I'd date him" Wonho said while spinning his chair. "Seriously?" I asked. "Yes, but he's always nagging though, he's like a mom that's always nagging" Wonho said "I'm craving for ramen now".

I looked at my watch and said "I'll call the bride".

I picked up my phone and dialed Naeun. She picked up the phone.

"Chorong-ssi? My mom and I are already at the wedding dress shop, my bridesmaids will come soon later" Naeun said. "I'll come in a while Naeun, don't worry" I said "I'll just be there to check on your dress and check 'wedding dress' on the list".

"Chorong, do you know anything that happened with Jimin? I haven't seen him around lately" Naeun said with worry in her voice. I stiffened at the sound of his name "I don't know what happened to him, maybe he's preparing himself to marry you" I said half-heartedly.

"Really? Because I'm not even ready to marry him. Honestly Chorong, I'm scared to marry him" Naeun said. "Why would you be afraid of him? He's someone your parents' picked for you and your parents' would know what's best for you" I said.

"But my parents' are divorced what would they know about love now? I thought getting married would b the only way to bring them back together" Naeun said and her voice was cracking like she was about to cry.

I stood up ,earning a glance from Wonho, and said "Naeun, don't cry, I'm coming for you right now".

I heard Naeun sniff and say "Okay Unnie" then I hung up and told Wonho. "I'm going out now, I'll call you if I need anything" I said then picked up my hand bag and left to the wedding dress store.

I drove all the way there and found Mrs. Son waiting on a couch. "Mrs. Son? Where's Naeun?" I asked. "She's in the dressing room 7 trying on a dress" said Mrs. Son whose eyes were fixated on her phone.

I nodded then went inside the room with Naeun inside. I found her face buried in her hands as she cried while wearing her dress. "Naeun, are you alright?" I asked and patted her back. "I don't want my parents like this anymore, I just want to get married for their sake" Naeun said in between sobs.

"It's alright Naeun" I said and continued to pat her back. "In reality, I love my man of honor, not my groom. Chorong, I don't want to get married" Naeun said and she leaned her head on my shoulder as I patted her back.

"It's alright Naeun, just let all those tears flow" I said and let her cry. After she finished, she stood up and said "Thank you Unnie, you really know how to comfort someone". I wish someone would comfort me like that "I'm used to it" was all I said "Now come on, you have more dresses to try on" then look amazing walking down that aisle to Jimin.