Different (Jack Gilinsky)

Chapter 15

Chapter 15

Faith

Today was the day we were coming back to California. I was going to miss Florida. I've had a lot of fun. More than I thought I would ever have. Even some unexpected admittance to feelings that I never thought I would admit to. Especially not out loud to the actual person. It's crazy how much can change in just three days.

"You ready?" My mom asked. I stood up and nodded exiting out the door and walking towards the lobby with Jack and Jack on either side of me. We didn't say much. I think we were all pretty bummed that we were leaving already. Three days went by way too fast.

Rose was in my moms arms and she was just as sad looking as all of us. We've had a lot of fun and made tons of memories on this little vacation and leaving sucks. But at least we all don't live far from each other and we are moving into Jack J's house soon where I'll get to see Jack G more often. Gosh, I can't believe that's all I'm thinking about.

We arrived at the airport soon and we boarded the plane. I Haden't even eaten breakfast. This was not good. I need my food in the morning or else I can't function.

I was sitting next to mom and Rose this time but Jack G passed some chips over to us. It's like he read my mind. I smiled gratefully at him and began to munch on the chips.

The flight didn't feel like it was long since I slept pretty much the whole way.

In no time we were already home. The guys had gone to their house and we were at ours.

I just lay in my bed thinking of everything that has happened. My mind has always been the most confusing place to be in, but now it's worse. It's starting to get to be a place where I don't even want to be.

My feelings for Jack are clear and I know he has feeling for me as well, (that still boggles my mind that he has feelings for me but he does and that's all that should really matter, right?). The problem is that I'm terrified. I've lived my life always on guard for anything or anyone that could hurt me. I've never had someone to look after me. I'm always the one that looks after people and make sure that they're okay, but when it's my turn to be protected, it's like I stepped into the Sahara desert. No one is there.

I groaned in frustration as I lay my head on my pillow. My thoughts quickly drove me to sleep and I was in dream land almost instantly.

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My eyes opened slightly because I kept hearing an annoying sound coming from my window. That suddenly made me scared. Why were noises coming from my window? It was now night time which made things a whole lot creepier.

Reluctantly I stood up to go look out the window to try and see what was causing the noise. Instead of being overjoyed at what I saw, I was actually slightly annoyed. It was three in the morning and Jack was throwing pebbles at my window. If there is something I despise, it's being woken up. Granted, this is a really cute gesture. But at three in the morning? I mean c'mon.

When did my life become a scene from a movie anyway?

I opened the window and whisper shouted, "What are you doing?" Jack simply smiled and stated, "Lets go swimming."

Is he serious?

I stared at him for a few longing seconds and his smile didn't falter.

He was serious.

"Are you aware of what time it is?" I asked him, rubbing my eyes tiredly. "I know, but I couldn't sleep."

I really did not want to go swimming. Was he insane? Well, I'm pretty insane too. Just not as much as to want to go swimming so late.

"How about you just come in and sleep with me?" I suggested surprising both of us. I never really thought I'd invite a guy to sleep with me. And not like that obviously, but in the most innocent way possible, just sleep with me.

I was just so tired that I wasn't thinking straight. There was nothing more that I wanted than to just go back to bed.

"Seriously?" He asked and I nodded almost instantly, "I'll go open the door for you."

I quietly made my way downstairs and opened the door as gently as I could, trying not to make a sound. If my mom caught me she'd probably disown me.

As soon as Jack came in I closed the door quietly and locked it. My eyes didn't meet his as I made my way back to my bed. Jack did not get in the bed until I patted the spot next to mine. The weight of the bed sunk slightly as his body slid down next to me. I hadn't really thought this through. I haven't been doing a lot of that lately. Thinking. I remember the days when I used to think over every single little detail. Boy was I miserable.

I looked up at Jack's eyes for the first time tonight and he looked perfect. Even though he looked extremely sleep deprived, he was still perfect to me. He managed to smile and his next actions caught me slightly off guard but I guess I'm going to have to get used to it by now. He seems to like to do this very often.

His hands wrapped around my waist and pulled me closer to him. Surprising myself for the second time tonight, I mimicked his actions by placing my hand around his waist. My head rested against his chest and he kissed my forehead. This was actual perfection.

My heartbeat increased by the second. "I can feel your heartbeat," he whispered with a raspy voice. My breath got caught in my throat as his hand traveled to where my heart had already lost its mind. "I love that I'm the one that caused that." As if my heart wasn't going crazy enough.

He took one of my hands and placed it against his chest. It wasn't beating as quickly as mine but it was still beating pretty fast. "That's what you do to me."

Even though it was dark and you couldn't see the color of my face, I hid my face in his chest as I couldn't stop smiling. "What are you doing to me?" I muttered against his chest, hoping he wouldn't hear me.

"I ask myself the same thing every night."

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Jabsksbskdbskdy I actually had a lot of feels writing this. xD

I will be doing Jack's POV in a few chapters here and there and as requested they will be in first person.

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