Bloodlines

The pains of a mother

As I laid chained to my bed, I thought to myself, where did it all go wrong?
One minute, I'm flying high and the next I'm on the ground- or in the ground. I just can't believe it. All of them are gone. In total, I've been in labor for about 10 hours with all of them. And one wasn't even born yet. All of that for nothing.
All of that hard work to keep them healthy and happy was for nothing. They were just gonna die in the long run. I couldn't protect them. I couldn't save them...
I looked around the almost empty room. I shook my chains but stopped when the guards pointed their weapons at me. Escape was impossible so I just sat back.
Opal, Alexandria, Tulio, they, didn't even get the chance to be teenagers. They didn't grow fully to be adults or to go through life changing experiences. My girls never got to see their sweet 16s. Tulio never got that father-son day that he wanted. We haven't been to Disney world and we just earned enough money for us to have our first family trip.
My babies will never drive their first car. They'll never have prom, graduation, first love, first kiss. They'll never get married or have children of their own. I will never have the talk with them, not that I would ever be ready for that. Kaldur never really had that super protective dad moment with the girls. They'll never have the teenage years where you start to see your really kids grow up...my baby birds died before they could leave the nest.
I heard the door open and saw Kaldur peek his head in,"I wish to be alone with my wife," he told the guards.
He stood in front of me,"I know you're upset."
I stared him in the eyes,"Upset? Kaldur I'm devastated! They're gone!"
"I was too late, love," He looked away from me,"I couldn't save them."
"But you could save me?!"
"I would bring them back if I could-"
"And you can!"
He walked over to me,"Do you remember what you did to me when you saw me?"
"No, but what does that-"
"Do you even know where you are?"
"Kaldur-"
"Do you?!"
I looked away,"No."
"We're in Ra's...castle?" Kaldur looked around but then back at me,"Anyways, you died...I brought you back with Ra's Lazarus pit. And when you emerged from the waters you tried to kill everyone in sight. And you did kill some men.."
My heart pace quickened when i felt movement that wasn't mine,"Kaldur I-"
"You were different and deadly. You even tried to attack me," he looked down,"You looked like you were in pain. I didn't want blood on the children's hand. I didn't want them to lose themselves like you did. I didn't want the balls of sunshine that I knew to love to be clouded by darkness, rage and pure hatred. Besides, I think they're better in heaven, were they belong."
He stopped talking waiting for me to answer. But his words had fallen on deaf ears, as I starred at my stomach,"Do you think I can still be pregnant?"
He looked at my stomach,"Are you telling me-"
"I feel something kicking me," I looked at Kaldur with worried eyes,"Is there some kind of side effect? Kaldur, I don't think I have a baby right now...I just can't not after everything that's happened and- I just lost 3 of them I can have another, what if this one dies too, Kaldur I can't-"
I couldn't hold it in anymore. The floodgates had opened and the tears rushed out like a waterfall. My vision became bury and Kaldur was no longer in sight. My cries were loud, ugly and full of sorrow. I felt my body shake as the tears came harder. My insides crumbed as my heart broke in two.
I felt a pair of familiar arms wrap around me,"Kaldur it hurts so bad! What are we gonna do?!"
"It's okay my love, we'll be okay."