My Life Story

Chapter 14: Getting The Wrong Message

                   (based on a true story  *different names used)
          You know how in some friendships between a girl and boy sometimes turn into a relationship well in this case this isn't like that at all. A few years ago my mom became friends with a woman and she had a son named Paulo. I had to bond with him she often came to my house with her son. Soon something happened with my mom's friend and she lived with us for while along with her son, and husband. I sort of already became friends with him soon he transferred schools and ended enrolling to my school.

      He ended up in my class he sort of had a rocky start with Juliette they knew each other how? Well I once had a birthday party and Juliette, Sophia (back when we were still friends), one of my other guy friends, and him. Were there and he said something to Juliette and she hit him where the sun won't shine with her foot. We were all surprised when he walked into the room. He didn't last too long in my school but he often fought with Jake and told people we were a thing which isn't true.

       He didn't last in my school because his mom found a new place and ended up moving and unenrolled my school. But way before that happened my mom said that Paulo said that I broke his heart how well we often fought and she said " He has a crush on you." When she told me that I decided to talk to Paulo and set things straight that we were nothing and that I don't like him. We stopped talking and when he did come to my house we sat far away from each other our moms often told us to watch a movie we watched a movie but sat far away from each other on the couch. A few weeks ago we saw my mom's friend along with Paulo and her husband imagine how weird it was seeing the person that you rejected.

         He isn't my type many times my mom tried changing my mind about Paulo but I told her I will never see him more than a friend. I feel like it's my fault that he was getting the wrong message at that time I had been crushing on Jake and Paulo sort of already knew which is why he picked fights with Jake. Even though things fell apart with Jake I still haven't changed my mind about Paulo he is my friend he will never be nothing more and I hope he forgives me one day for not liking him like that. He thought I felt something too he ended up confessing his feelings but I couldn't say I liked him back if I really didn't feel that way I would be lying to myself and him. Many times I tried liking him but I can't I just can't.

     We met back in 2013 or 2014 I can't remember but since that day our friendship was never the same. He still won't understand that I don't like him I don't know what to do. A few weeks ago I saw him at the store and we didn't say anything to each other but he kept staring at me but I felt uncomfortable I knew he was a pervert I want someone to like me for me not my body. Many people said he said we were dating  I got mad and told him to stay away from me he told my mom just the stay away part my mom believed him more. I was hurt because she believed him more than me.

     He once gave me a stuffed animal on the day I got out of the hospital I thanked him but then I lost the stuffed animal then the day we moved my mom threw it away. I never felt nothing towards him he is the same age as me. I couldn't believe he lied to many people. I don't know how to make him understand that there will never be an us but in a way that won't hurt him. Many times I got in trouble for trying to tell him how I really felt until one day I decided it was time. He didn't understand but for all I know he won't be able to change my mind because these are my feelings. My feelings tell me I don't feel anything towards him.

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Published on: July 19, 2017