What the bad boy did to me

Chapter 13; Nowhere to turn to

I was at the verge of killing myself that day when I returned home. With tears in my eyes, and a huge hole in my heart, I decided to keep the truth away from everyone including my parents.
But for how long?
I needed to clear my head from all the troubles and pain that I was facing all as a result of my own stupidity.

My parents weren't home when I arrived, so I could freely shout and let out my frustrations.

I really needed to talk with Sean. I knew calling Sean would be futile but I called him again anyway. After trying his line three good times without progress, I knew I had to find out where he was and see him. Just then, I received a call from Allie, and I decided to ignore it. I just wasn't in the right mood to talk to anyone except Sean. I wished I could see him.

I checked the time and it was still 1:15pm. I still had time to go out. I decided to dress to impress Sean. There was a dress he bought me as our 'dating anniversary gift'. It was a pretty black dress decorated with blue and red flowers. It was pretty open at the breast area and I guess that's what he liked about the dress. I smiled as I brought the pretty dress out of my wardrobe and I tried it on and I noticed that it was tighter than before. I guess I'm getting fat. The funny part was that I loved eating and I still dreaded the idea of getting fat.
'Nice' I said to myself as I checked myself out in the mirror. I could tell that I looked gorgeous, despite the fact that the dress was tight. I tied my hair in a messy bun, took off my glasses, and applied more eyeliner and mascara.
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At the garage, I decided to take my baby (gift dad gave me on my birthday)
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I drove all the way to Sean's house and it wasn't quiet as usual. His house would always be booming with music. I guess he hasn't changed yet. I wished he hadn't changed.
*knock knock* I stepped back to adjust my dress so it could reveal something at the front. But then , I thought, 'what if he rejects you again?'
If he does, or he doesn't, I had to let him know how sorry I was for betraying him. I had to let him know that I still loved him and that I was willing to do anything just to prove it.
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'Hello , how can I help you?' I heard a lady say. She was wearing a blue bikini and her hair was tied in a ponytail style. I stood there puzzled. I couldn't find the right words to say. I wanted to ask her who the fuck she was and what she was doing at my boyfriend's house but somehow, I muttered "I'm here to see Sean, is he in?"
"Oh yeah, sure come in. He's in, probably at the back with the boys" she said as she opened the door wider for me. I was surprised at how polite she was. "My name's Alisha" she said as she extended her right hand.
"Clara" I replied as I shook her hand.
"I like your dress, pretty sexy but don't you think it's not appropriate for a bikini party?"
"What bikini party?"
"Oh I thought you were here for th-, never mind Sean's at the back" She said as she walked away.
"Wait!" I called to her, and she walked back.
"Yes?"
"I'm here for the party. I just need some time to get dressed". She smiled and replied saying " Ah, I understand, but you have to be fast. Come, I'll show you to the bathroom".
"There's no need for that, I know my way around this house" I said with a smirk.

She nodded and left. Guess she was going back to the 'bikini party'. I rolled my eyes.

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I went to the bathroom and luckily for me, I was wearing blue matching panties and bra. "Too bad Sean couldn't see me in my dress, but anyways, he's gonna see me in this" I said as my hands moved upwards in that 'I'm so hot way" and I smirked.
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I walked to the back and with every step I made, my heart ached. I was scared at what reaction Sean was going to give me. I made up my mind that if Sean was gonna disgrace me at this party, that would serve as my first punishment. I had to be ready for whatever was coming my way.