I got lost in the beauty of the brown eyes of the guy that was coming down the stairs. The pull I felt made me think in two directions; either we're werewolves (which is impossible) or I'm just experiencing what is called love at first sight.
Days later, I felt nothing special for the guy and I moved on telling myself it was the eye colour that amazed me. Weeks later, rough plays, teasing and calling me stupid names was his own way of getting a girls attention. It never occurred to me, I thought he was just a bully, could I have a bully at University? I don't think that's possible.
Months later, he got the attention he wanted, I noticed him not for the love but for the madness he was always displaying. Two semesters and two months after, I fell in love with him and his mad ways. He opened up to me, he trusted me with his greatest secrets, he called me nice and beautiful names, made me feel like a queen. With each passing minute and second, I fell deeper in love with him, but he never told me that he loved me. He didn't even want us to be friends but he keeps complaining about me shutting him out. I never saw his flaws and mistakes. Love is blind, right? But it seems I was the idiot.
What finally killed me was the day I walked up to him boldly and asked him "Why me? Why do you care so much about me?"
He told me he only got close to me because he wanted to change my mentality about relationships. I never believed in love but I fell in love with someone who sees me as a pathetic idiot whose mentality needs to be changed. I cried in silence, It hurt so bad that the pain in my head lasted for days. As I take my pen today to write this down, I've decided to take my mind off him. Let him go and you reading this should also let him go. Sit back and ask yourself, "Is this love, or something else? Is it love or pity? Is he seeing you as a convenience?"
He never told you he loved you but you've already imagined your first date, your marriage, how many children you'll have, even what your name will sound with his last name. It's true, not everything is as it seems, but this time, you will ask him, "Is this love, or something else?"
Wait for his answer, whether the answer is yes or no, you will move forward, in either direction. But you will remain strong. You deserve true love, not everyone finds the one the first shot, but you will eventually. Stay strong, and stay patient.
The story is based on a true life story of the writer.
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