soulangelo

evading them

this is unedited. also, pretty much everyone in this story is officially ooc now. i now deem this fanfic to be one of the worst mediocre ones i've ever read. *sighs* well, at least it has punctuation.

Nico, to put it lightly, hated himself. He hated cowardly people, and there he was, being a coward. He wanted to leave camp forever, throw himself to outside world defenceless, and let the monsters get to him. He stayed at camp, and he continued to hate himself, but he stayed mostly to himself, away from the other campers by hiding in his camp. He skipped breakfast, dinner, and the sing-alongs. He ate lunch alone at the Hades table, his back facing the Apollo cabin. He signed himself up for activities in such a way that he never had a class with Will Solace and the rest of the Apollo cabin.

Nico di Angelo didn't stop loving Will. In fact he couldn't. No matter how much he tried. He was sure Will would hate him now that he knew Nico's darkest secret. Will's godly parent, Apollo, had no preference as to which gender he liked, but he doubted that his son knew that, or even cared.

He didn't really mean what he said when he told Will that he would dissolve into a puddle of shadows if he talked to him ever again. Nico was just... impulsive to say the least. An impulsive little ball of rage that exploded whenever someone tried to get close to him, or found out something about Nico. But even if Will didn't care that he was gay, he definitely would not forgive Nico for the threats and manipulative words.

(the lack of a transition irritates me)

Nico needed to talk to someone. Someone who wasn't at Camp Half-Blood at the moment. So he contacted Reyna, praetor of the Twelfth Legion, but she didn't have much advice to offer.

She listened patiently as Nico ranted about how he had messed things up with Will. Reyna, it seemed, already knew about the whole fight in the woods, thanks to Annabeth.

"I'm afraid I'm not the best person to give you advice," said Reyna in a careful voice. "I don't think I've ever told you this, but I've never been in a real, two-sided relationship with someone. I've only been rejected." She sighed. "Aphrodite once told me that no demigod shall ever heal my heart, whatever that means. So I've just stopped trying. If love wants to make its way into my life, then I guess it will."

After that conversation, Nico lost what little hope he had remaining. He became the cranky and irritable person everyone believed him to be, and mostly everybody stayed out of his way. So naturally, when Jason and Piper called him, he was rather shocked.

The daughter of Aphrodite apparently knew about his homosexuality, and it didn't make her think less of him. "Spill," Piper commanded.

Nico, who was scared of the girl, had no choice except for to answer. He explained everything, from his week in
the infirmary to the past few days. di Angelo, (should the first letter of the sentence be capitalised?) more than anything, was glad that neither Jason nor Piper had expressions of pity on their face. Instead, they talked to him, gave him advice, and helped him.

Nico decided he would give himself a weeks time to talk to Will. And so
the son of Hades didn't stop hating himself, but he now had hope, and that was a start.