** TRIGGER WARNING**
Some days I am more victim than victor
A shell of a girl walking
Angry and resentful I have become
It was no accident
No drunken mistake
I was a sober choice
A repeated choice
A 9 year olds screams silenced under a grown man
Socks muffled my cries
This body ripped and shattered for life
Still 8 years later his voice lingers in my ears
Still the memory of his hands on my skin
makes me sick
Still my heart stops at your name
Still - I weep for the nightmare you created
For years I shut everyone out
No one would love a girl like me
Broken and torn
So weak, I allowed you to do this
As a child I blamed myself for you doings
For you being the monster you are
For 8 fucking years I blamed myself for your raping
