This is Us* Vol 1*

*Baekhyun*

"What are we waiting for?" he told me and I toss my shirt to the side. He grins and waves his hand, "Keep going," he orders again. I reach behind my waist and unzip my skirt. I kick it off and remain standing in front of him. He pushes himself out of his seat and walks up to me, his grin disappears and is replaced with a neutral gaze. Almost in a flash he pushes me, my back comes into contact with the rough white sheets of the bed. I look up meeting his dark gaze again, he then slowly crawls up on top of me. 

"You know what your doing right?" he asks me and I remain silent and focused on his face taking in how handsome he was. From the glimmer in his eyes to the pink of his lips. "I don't care," I feel myself say and he roughly squeezes my thigh, but as his grip gets harder I clench my eyes shut. "If you don't care, neither do ," he whispers and releases my thigh, his hand slowly making its way to my face. As his soft fingers come in contact with my skin I shiver at his touch, only having imagine how it would feel.

 He removes his hand and suddenly takes a hold of my hair and pulls my head up closer to his, as our lips are mere inches from one another his eyes focus on my lips. He closes the space and his grip in my hair gets tighter, the kiss so intoxicating that all I can do is feel a smile trying to grow across my face. "You're mine tonight," he says breaking the kiss and I watch as his hand that was in my hair makes its way back down to the belt he had holding his already tight pants. "As long as I'm yours," I say again and he grins, soon his belt is undone. Then his shirt is somewhere in the dingy hotel room that he bought for the night. 

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I woke up to the morning sun shining in my face, I push myself up only to collapse on the bed and everything hurts. I touch my neck and it burns, I lift the blanket and see the purple-black bruises on my thighs, my wrists are also slightly bruised. When I look around the hotel room I see no trace of him, but I smile as I remember the night that was felt last night. 

When I can, I manage to leave the bed and pick up the clothes that where thrown all over and take them to the restroom. As I stand in the mirror I take a closer look at the hand marks around my throat and when I turn slightly something red catches my eyes. I then find scratch marks on my back, they hurt at the touch so I only wince and carefully pull my clothes on. Once I wash up and try to make myself look less like hell I grab my black purse and quickly leave the hotel before anybody could see me or recognize me. 

When I reach my apartment I pray my roommate isn't home to see me this way. She wouldn't understand. When the door is open I remove my shoes and hang my purse on the rack, I look around when she comes out of nowhere with her arms crossed but then they drop. "What the fuck?! Where were you?! Wait!" she takes a step closer and pushes my hair out the way and she covers her mouth and takes a step back. "You really saw him again?!" she shouts and I just remain neutral not feeling any guilt or the need to explain myself. "Why?! Sel!" she says and her eyes well up with tears, "Why do you go back?!" she questions again and soon I can see the anger in her eyes. "He loves me just like I love him. You'd never understand," I tell her and she lets out a frustrated laugh and grabs my bruised wrist and drags me to the restroom where we stand in the mirror. "Really?! The only thing he loves is hurting you!" she says and I only see the marks around my neck as his love marks. "I can't do this anymore! Your just both fucked up!" she says and immediately leaves the restroom. I stay standing in the restroom and soon I hear the front door slamming shut. 

I sat in the tub as I softly cleaned over the marks left from Baekhyun, trying not to press too hard. I hugged my knees as the silence in the apartment gets louder and louder. "Without me?" says a voice and I turn to the silhouette in the doorway, Baekhyun. I smile and he gets closer to the tub, "Mind me?" he questions and I just shake my head and watch as he begins to undress and then make his way into the tub. He sits in front of me but gets closer and closer, he reaches behind my head and turns the faucets and turns the shower on. He then pulls the plug to the tub and stands up, "We can't do this sitting down," he orders and I try and stand up but my legs are sore. I rest on the side of the shower but soon his body is touching my own and my arms are in his grasp. 

When he was done he left the shower and I sank down to the floor of shower. I closed my eyes as the water continued to hit my limp body, "See you later Sel," he told me and I distantly heard the door slam shut. I just needed a minute to sleep.

"SEL!" 

Was enough to wake my sense up again, although it was too bright to take in where I was I only felt the cold. "Sel?!" the voice called out again and I closed my eyes and reopened them again this time I could see clearly, it was Zay. "Sel...can you remember anything?" she asked me and I nodded, "I thought you where done?" I asked her and groan as I try and shift my body but everything hurts too bad, worse actually. "I couldn't just leave you to that monster! Sel you have to stop with him! Your in the hospital," she tells me and takes my hand into her own. I look from her down to myself and then see the white gown im in and the white sheet im under. "I...love him," I say and she sighs and shakes her head, "No! You don't!" she says and I watch as she rushes to the door of the room and pulls it back. A officer walks in and looks from Zay to myself and then takes a seat on my right and begins to explain things like assault and abuse. 

His love isn't abuse, it's just his way of loving. 

It's something about each other that we keep getting pulled together.

He comes back and I go back.

He waits for me.

The cycle that I love all too much.

I laid their that night and wished I had the strength to get up and leave. I missed his smooth touch and his spine shivering words. 

Baekhyun...