The hottie

Chapter 53

"I cheated on you with Tom from work the last three times I've gone to work, it ment nothing it's just that you wouldnt have sex so I felt well ya know. Sad, I love you I wanna get married to only you not some freak show from work. I understand if you dont accept just thought you should know I was sorry. I'm also sorry I kept it from you I won't ever do it again. If you accept?" I said quickly running out of breath. Luke looked at me with no emotions. "I-I have nothing to say to you!" He said in discuss. He began walking away. I hopped off the couch at him. "Luke!" I yelled. He stopped at the front door and turned around at me. I didn't say anything so he walked out. I ran after him and stopped him out front. "What?!" He yelled. "Please don't be mad" I said beginning to cry again. "You cheated Michael, what do you see me for? A toy, a usable? Cause that's not what I am, I never will be. I'm human, just as you are." He said. I laughed in anger. "I'm human to, humans make mistakes. I hate myself for what I did, you can't be to mad at least I didnt keep it from you... for too long and you find out through someone else. I literally cried the whole time I was here on the floor laying, crying cause I know what i did was wrong, you would never Do something like that! I fucked myself over, I don't wanna not be friends I wanna be married to the one I love!" I yelled. "Then your getting married to the wrong person then, I'm not the one you love" Luke said. "See thats the thing, you are the one. I'm sorry if you can't see that but--" I began saying. "Michael, if you wanted to have sex. The worse you could get is a no. We would have had sex eventually. I guess it's not good enough" he said walking around me. I grabbed his arm just as he did mine that day I yelled at him. He stopped and looked at my hand he tugged but I grabbed harder. "I'm not letting go that easy" I argued. "What's that one song you always listen to?" Luke asked. I thought and shrugged. "If you love me let me go. By panic at the disco." He said. I thought for a moment. "If you love someone let them go, if they return there were yours to keep in the first place, if they don't they weren't yours to have" he said. I looked him in the eye's, he was crying I started to cry a bit harder and slowly let go of his hand. He looked at me like I was dumb founded and smiled and nodded and he got in the car and drove away. I walked inside walked past the living room and up the stairs and layed on the bed. I yelled as loud as I could. "I wish that I could wake up with amnesia"