•~•In the next little but, I will be telling how I feel about a certain situation. It could be real. It could be fake. I'll tell you at the end. I'm not posting this for attention. I need my feelings out there. I can't hold back. This is the simplest way.
Please don't judge. I just needed to let on all out. I'm confused. Don't take anything in a bad way. This is how I open up. Enjoy~•~
~SEBASTIAN
I can feel it deep in my heart. You're drifting away from me. We talk a lot less. You seem to be annoyed with me all the time. I miss how we were a few weeks ago. I remember the message you sent about me being your soul mate.
What happened to us? I miss you. why don't we talk anymore? we don't talk unless I message you.
I'm breaking baby.
I need you. I can't wait any longer.
I feel dead inside. my soul is slowly dying. I can feel it slowly giving up. Slowly wanting to let you go. My heat and my soul are fighting and it hurts. One wants to be happy with you when the time comes, and the other wants me to be happy now.
What do I do? I can't choose. I can't leave him. I love him. but I'm in so much emotional pain. Help me. I need help.
What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you?
I see your name. It says you are online. You have been commenting on a picture you shared. You said you were having time you yourself. Do you know how hard it is to trust you?
I remember when I asked to go on something of yours and you actually said "no. there is stuff I don't want you to see" do you wanna know what that makes me think? It makes me think like you are cheating on me. Like this is a game. Like nothing matters. That sentence alone is killing my trust for you.
I want to give you all my trust but I've been hurt before. I can't handle it. I don't want to be hurt anymore. You are supposed to be different. You are different but you seem to be hiding. I tell you anything you want. Even if it makes me cry. Yet one simple thing and suddenly, I can't have it.
I love you so much. Is love supposed too hurt this much? I don't want to wait until you finish school to finally see you for the first time. We skype. We text. That's it. I need you here with me. I'm breaking. You're my super glue, I need you so I don't fall apart. it's hard when you can't be here. I feel like crying all the time. I wanna give up but I can't. You mean too much.
•~•This is real. This person is real. Some of you will already know who it is. Some of you won't. That's fine. Please don't judge me for sharing my feelings.~•~
~SEBASTIAN
