No Promises

Intro

Do you ever fell as though you're forgotten, lost... invisible? Yeah me to. I'm Malaya McCarty, and this is my story.

I'm 18 years old, have wavy brown shoulder length hair with blonde highlights and purple eyes. Yes purple eyes. I've had them since I was born, doctors didn't understand why so they just said I was weird. I am extremely intelligent and have a photographic memory. My family died 5 years ago in a car crash. My parents died instantly but my little brother died in surgery. I was the only one who survived. I was broken. It was like I had been torn into pieces and would never be put back together. I had no other existing family and refused to go into foster care. Thats when my bestfriend, Crystal, said I could live her and her parents. So, that's what I did. I had been living with them for 6 months and me and Crystal grew closer, if it was even possible. Things started to get better and the torn pieces started becoming one again. That is until one Friday evening. I had just got in from school and noticed Crystal wasn't here. She'd been off all week because she was ill. I was worried but thought it was just a sickness bug and thought she'd be alright. Boy was I wrong. Jake (Crystals dad) drove us to the hospital because Crystal was rushed in a few hours earlier. I first saw Lucy (Crystals mum), when I entered the room. Then Crystal came into my view. She had tubes and wires all over her and looked as if she'd been crying.

"Oh my god, are you ok, whats wrong?" You could  hear the concern and fear in my voice. Crystal looked me dead in the eye, I noticed her eyes were filling up. "I'm so sorry Mal. I don't want to break our promise! I...I..."She was unable to finish her sentance because she broke down crying. Tears were pouring out of her eyes like water out of a tap. I rushed to her side to comfort her when it dawned on me on what she meant by breaking our promise. I looked to Jake and Lucy for confirmation. I saw them trying to hold back the tears but failed miserably. My heart stopped. I couldn't breathe. "Wha...What...Whats wrong?" I asked  with as much strength as I could, but it was barely an audible whisper. One word from Lucy killed me. One word destroyed me. "Cancer." I was going to loose my bestfriend, my sister, the only person who understood me.

2 months later Crystal  passed from cancer. I never cried so much in my life, even when my family died. I know that migth seem horrible and maybe a little bit drastic but it's true. Crystal was there for me through everything. When I was bullied for having purple eyes, when my first boyfriend dumped me because I was 'too sarcastic', and most importantly, when I lost my family. All those pieces that were coming back together were torn up again and I knew they would never be one again. I knew I was never going to be close with anyone ever again.

On the day of her funeral I didn't stop crying. I felt bad for Jake and Lucy becuase they had lost their only child. Crystal was so young and didn't deserve to die. After the ceremony I stayed at her grave for about 6 hours. Crying, screaming, shouting, asking why she had to break our promise. However, I soon realised she didn't want to break our promise and that I wasn't mad at her. I could never be mad at her. I soon made a decision that would change my life forever. I didn't return to Jakes and Lucys. I couldn't. I wouldn't be able to cope living in her home without her and I know it was cruel on Jake and Lucy but they didn't deserve to have the burden of looking after me on their shoulders. So, I left, and never looked back.

Ever since that day I haven't shed a single tear. It's as if all the life, blood and tears were drained from my body. As if my heart was no longer safely protected in my chest, but with Crystal. And there it will stay.

Forever.