Exposed // scorbus

chapter ten ♔ confessions and friendzones

     Ever since Addison had left, things were weird between Albus and Scorpius.
   Both of them were too scared to discuss the kiss, and too scared to discuss feelings. However, they did feel closer than ever since the kiss. On most nights like this, they'd act like they'd act like nothing had ever happened between them; not tonight though. Tonight was different.

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  Albus and Scorpius had both been too busy to talk much that day. Both of them had skipped lunch and dinner, and since it was Saturday they hadn't seen each other in classes.

It was 4am, and they were having their typical late-night conversations, the ones they usually have after both waking up from nightmares. These days they only dreamt about Addison and what she did. Once, they both had a dream where the other one was killed on the same night. It was almost like Addison was controlling their dreams. Weird, right?

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"Scorp, can I tell you something if you promise to not act weird about it?"

"You can tell me anything Al."

"Okay. Please don't interrupt me. This has been on my mind ever since I killed Addison. That night, the night I killed her, I genuinely thought I was gonna loose you. I thought I'd never get the chance to talk to you without you screaming at me. When she cast the Cruciatus curse on you, I almost got up and killed her then and there. I don't know why I didn't. I felt lost to say the least. When I heard the sound of your scream, it took me back. It took me back to when we met on the Hogwarts express, when we kissed under the mistletoe in third year, when my dad forced us apart in fourth year, when we saved the wizarding world from Delphi, and to when we cuddled that night I was black out drunk. I then realized something. I realized that I was in love with you, and you're the only one I have ever felt this for, and the only person i'll ever feel like this towards. I realized I couldn't lose you, not now, not ever. Then, I got this burst of bravery. For the first time in my life, I felt like I was my Dads son. It was because of you. I felt brave because of you. Then, I heard her begin to cast the Imperius curse, I realized what I had to do. I killed her, as you know. Then - " he pauses for a moment, blushing so hard that Scorpius noticed it in the dark. "And then you kissed me. And - and I felt the happiest I had ever been in my life. Although it wasn't our first kiss, it was the first one that was purely by choice, and not because we had too. My point is, I'm in love with you."
Scorpius was blushing harder than he ever had in his life.
Scorpius sits quietly for a moment while looking his best friend in the eye.

After about 45 seconds of agonizing silence, Scorpius finally begins to speak. "Albus- How can I say anything to beat what you just said? I'm at a loss of words to say the least." Eventually, he finally figures out what to say.

    "First of all, what you just said was cheesy as fuck, Albus. But I loved it. Anyways, when you saved me, I felt a surge of a strong emotion. At the time, I had no idea what the emotion was. Obviously, I assumed it was happiness or thankfulness or something stupid like that. But, now I realize that the emotion I felt that night was love. Pure and true love. It was the best feeling I had ever experienced in my life. It was like I had just seen color for the first time. I love you too, Albus."

  Both of them just kind of stayed silent after that, just admiring each other. Neither knew what the other wanted, and that scared them.

    After what seemed like forever, Scorpius finally mustered the bravery to speak.

"Albus, what are we?"

"What do you want us to be?" Albus says cheekily.

Scorpius pauses for a moment, wondering what he wanted.

"I want us to be together, but not right now. It's just to soon - I'm still not over the Addison stuff. I'm sorry." Scorpius says, expecting Albus to be upset.

"I understand. I'm gonna go to sleep. Goodnight, Scorp." Albus says, faking a smile
and trying to sound okay. Deep down, he was hurt. Maybe Scorpius just didn't really wanna be with Albus.

but maybe he did.

"Can I lay with you, Albus? It's okay if you don't want to, I'm just scared I'll have another nightmare." Scorpius asks nervously.

"You can always lay with me, Scorpius." Albus says tiredly, sliding over so Scorpius can join him.

   When they wake up the next morning, their fingers are intertwined together. It's like a scene from a movie. A movie that was about to have a huge plot twist, that is.