I'm through with all the games, let's be real. Through with "what if's", lets just face it all...if not together then alone. I'm better off on my own, this I know. I had my chance...I was too scared to let go. Too scared to find out what life was waiting for me beyond those doors. I miss the innocence I never had. I miss the part of me that became new sleeping on a park bench. That girl had the guts to call it quits. To face life right back in the eyes and yell "f*** you". Where did she go? I feel her here trapped within my cowardly skin. I know she's here, but She can't seem to find a way to make it through. I'm killing her by loving you. Each day she grows weaker as I fall deeper, into the abyss. The truth is I know I missed the trains whistle blow and if I die, I'll miss hells bells take their toll.
