Bitter Sweet love | A Phanfic

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:: Phils P.o.V::
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Phil was sent into a spiraling depression after hearing the news of his boyfriend's fate. The sunsets seemed gray. The night just seemed to fade away like the wind on Phils frown. Phil started out slowly. Slowly realizing that dan will never answer when he calls. Slowly realizeing he'll never be able to cuddle dan on the worst of days when the rains on and the things in life are sour tasting. Slowly he realized Dans gone. Slowly he realized Dans never coming home.
Then it got worse. Phil started hearing voices.
"Its your fault"
"You didn't save him"
"He didn't even love you"
"Faggot"
"Freak"
"Worthless"
"Dan hated you"
"Freak freak freak freak freak"
They were to much everything was to much. Its been a month. Phil hadn't ate slept left the house in a month.
But he had cried for hours, cut, burn, starved himself and much more. He hated himself indefinitely.
It was his fault he killed dan.
He left dan alone to sit and think about his actions. Sure phil didn't kill dan physical only mentally. It was a sunday. He hurt worse than ever.
Dan always liked sundays he woul always say that they were magic to his eyes watching the sunrise smiling ear to ear always looking over at phil to see his equally stupid smile.
But now sundays seemed like a smack to the face. They were bitter tasting with a hint of sour.
Phil looked bad.
Messy hair
Dried tears
Bat eyes
Cuts everywhere
Little marks of burns
Stubble
He was too skinny. But he got dressed fixed his hair like old times.
"Dan ill be h-" phil stopped his world stopped finally finally realizeing.
Dans Never Coming Back.
But phil closed the door anyway.
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He finally a rives at the small graveyeard. Smelling in the depressing sent of death and life.
As Dans grave came into sight he saw a girl with brunette hair and soft eyes
"Hey phil.." she say softly.
"Hi lexi" Phils raspy vocie came out edged and rugged.
"So what are you doing here?" Phil asked simultaneously looking at dans grave.
"Visiting my dad" she said bending down to place the fake white roses on top of the grave stone.
"Im sorry" my vocals were slowly jaring and slurring.
"I am too phil" she gave a soft smile "its gonna be okay" phil tried to smile.
But he could only nod. "Well Zoeys waiting for me.. have a nice day" then she slowly walked away.
"Lexi!" Phil yelled hoping to stop her.
She turned around looking confused
"Yeh?"
"Tell zoe im sorry"
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::Lexis P.o.V::
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"Tell zoe im sorry!"
I looked at phil with confusion
He chuckled sadly and bitterly.

"Tell her sorry? For what?"
He smiled
A horrifc sour smile.

"For this" he pulled out a silver gun.
I was struck with shock.
My limbs couldn't move my eyes were fading away as i heard a loud bang
And saw phil lester dead ontop dans grave.
The next few days were awful zoe was put into a hospital.
Today.
Today was the funeral it was short and small. No one really. Phil was next to dan. No one really did know phil especially not dan. Phil was just as sad as him. But he kept it to himself. He wanted everyone else to be happy. I still feel quilty i could have saved him. But i didn't so they sent me away. A new life name house family. Im not the same neither is dan or phil or even gre.
But i looked out my window everyday. Seeing how the moon kissed the earth. See how the sun left.
Phil was the sun.
Dan was the moon.
Some loves are harder than others.
Some are bitter.
Some are sweet.
But some are bitter sweet.
You cant fix bitter loves.
You can fix sweet loves.
But don't think you can fix bitter sweet loves.
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Lexi looked out the window of her mental ward room.

She thought about how dan and phil were so loved yet so hated.
How they weren't happy yet they were. She thought about the times zoe would await there presence smiling.
But dan was there. Not phil.
Phil was always her best friends crush. But dan always came in stole him. Zoe did nothing but watch.
Thats what lexi is doing
Watching.
Watching the blood curdling rain fall slowly onto the dry pavement
Rain normally calmed her. But tonight nothing was okay. Nothing was al-fucking-right she missed them. And zoe. She missed everyone Lexi started Screaming whys and pleads because she didnt want dan and phil to be gone. But nothing happened but the rain falling out of the sky
You can't fix a bitter sweet love.
Drip.. drip.. drip
Even if you wanted too
Drip.. plop.. drip
No one could have saved them
But, thats complying lies.
Plop.. drop..pop
You could have but you didn't
No one offered help.
Drip.. drip .. drip
Went the blood like rain.
Drip... drip
Don't think you could've fixed a bitter sweet love.
Fin

Holy fuck.
Its really over isn't it? Shit.
I thought this would feel better ending somthing ive worked on for two years. But i just- can't.
Well the end.
That's my fairy tale.
Not all of them have happy endings in reality. Thanks for reading this mess it brings hope to my already torn apart heart. Im sorry it wasn't good but i tried so hard. Im
Thank you though
Thank you So much.
Bye guys have a nice night.
Smile at the moon and sun for me
Please c:
Bye though i must go onto a journey filled with love and laughs completed with mysterys.
Yes im making a sequel.
Yes it will revolve around dan and phil.
Yes dan and Phil are 'alive'
Okay tho
Peace peace guys
-sams gone away-