"we already fucked, might as well get attached.", i shrugged pacing the workshop. ive been here not even a month yet, and I already found someone I care about- and no, not just because we fucked.
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"Luschek, I was raped alright?", I mumbled. "Are you happy now?!", I yelled punching his chest angrily, he wasn't phased by my hit so I hit him again. Still nothing.
"It's not rape if it's consensual.", Luschek scoffed, crossing his arms.
I took a deep breath, my head feeling woozy from just that. "It was when we first met... I was high and he was well, horny. He was giving me a tour of his place and then we were in his bedroom and I was face down in a pillow attached to the bed.", I said.
I started crying- not because I had to tell Luschek... but because I had to tell myself. I sniffled and wiped tears from the corners of my mouth.
"Did you stay with him?", Luschek asked, his face red out of anger. I nodded my head.
"I didn't have a choice, he made me stay and it's not like I had anywhere to go or anyone to take care of or anyone to take care of me.", I answered and shook my head. "He is a nice guy, just tough."
"This doesn't make any sense. You're an adult-", he started to say but I stopped him.
"All the more reason I couldn't say anything- I just came to realization I was raped two minutes ago, keep that in mind.", I said pausing at the word, the sound of the disgusting word. "If I went to the police- federal government Luschek- and said I was raped-", I was speaking slowly making sure he took in every word I spat out, "they'd run tests on me. Most likely including drug tests, I was currently highish- coming down from a high- and I'd've been in-prisoned a long time ago.",
I had to take a minute to contemplate what I just said, the moment and my thoughts from that day coming back slowly and in a blur. "You know who would've walked free?", I asked waiting for him to say anything at all. "No seriously, guess who Luschek. You seem to know everything and everyone's story, so please go ahead guess for me save me the breaths I don't have."
My eyes got all droopy again, my throat thought it was closing up from my stomach being so upset at me. I stood there, not having the courage to look up at Luschek, waiting for him to speak.
I was secretly hoping he'd crack one of his jokes and move past this, it's over. My baby boy is gone, my Michael Rumio is just gone.
"Not you, but I'm just guessing here.", he said shifting his weight, his little tummy bouncing as he did so. I found his tummy the cutest thing, next to his cheeks of course, about him.
"So listen, not telling you about some guy who got me all banged up an' shit- then on top of that leaving me in here to fucking burn in the pits of hell is not something I should be feeling so shitty about doing to you!", I said yelling at the end. "I still shouldn't care! Why do I care what the fuck?!", I sobbed. "I never even got to hold my baby..."
Luscheks face grew soft, his rosey cheeks weren't as bright red anymore. I watched him peek around quickly, I wasn't sure why but he did it, and I just rolled my eyes.
"Because I'm an asshole.", he said before I watched him lean down, my chin between his thumb and index finger guiding me upwards. I kissed back, just as much passion as him- his small lips were so inviting above my somewhat plump top one.
I smiled softly when he pulled away, my head to the ground but my eyes up at him bashfully. "Are we good now?", I asked rubbing my lips.
"Don't bullshit me?", he said more as a question then a statement, I nodded mumbling an 'of course' as I did so. "Inmate!", he so suddenly yelled, loud enough for it to be heard inside. "That's enough!", he yelled again bringing me towards the door, whipping it open and pointing to my stool. "Keep your mouth shut and do your work."
Except I listened. The whole time I was pretending to fumble with the lamp I was smiling slyly to myself, glancing over at Luschek every once and a while.
I figure that conversation won't be over soon but for now we are alright, I take that as a temporary victory.
(Correct my spelling mistakes for when I edit this book, it's not ending anytime soon unless I decide to make a part 2 but that won't be for a while. Also leave comments, vote and share (: im going to start adding stuff from the television show so if stuffs different about it remember that this is my own version of the show blah blah blah, just let me write my way thanks.)
