1 month later
After the visit with Magnus it made everything worse. I started to drink twice the time I already did, cut more, sleep a lot less and I even went mute basically.
I had no reason to talk to anyone. My father hates me and used to beat me. I almost lost my Parabatai and my sister once. Max is gone and now the love of my life thinks I'm a betraying person and back stabber who broke up with me.
So I started going on hunts by my self. Until one day I got Seriosuly injured.
I lay on the floor of an abandoned building about a block from the institute. I hit my head pretty hard but there was poison in me, I knew it. And I couldn't even move my leg.
"Alec!!!!"
I looked over and tried to see through the blurry vision and saw it was Jace.
"You're lucky I followed you!"
I felt Jace lift me up and started to run back to the institute before I blacked out.
- Magnus POV -
After cleaning up my house a little bit I sat down a cuddled into my giant sweater I was wearing. It smelled just like Alec.
After a while I heard my phone ring.
"Hello?"
"Magnus! This is Isabelle. And I swear to god if you don't come down here and save Alec I will murder you. He's in bad shape and we can't help him."
"I'll be right there."
I could barley breath. My Alexander was in trouble. I quickly made a portal and made it to the institute infirmary.
Everyone turned around and I could tell they all noticed. Bags under my eyes and messy hair.
Also after Alec's visit I got too upset and went on a hunt like Alec but ran into camille instead. She cut my face pretty good during a fight we had so now theres a long scar from the corner of my lip to my ear. I can fix it but I chose not to.
After that I got into a problem of heavily drinking and drugs. I'm clean now but you can tell by my face it was pretty bad.
So is the no glitter or make up part since I blew up and my magic kinda exploded almost everything, even leaving a giant rash on my neck which is a giant red circle scar. Which once again I can fix but chose not to.
"Magnus you okay?"
"We should worry about Alec not me." I said with not emotion in my voice.
I walked over to Alec and used my magic to see the problem. I quickly fixed his leg and checked the poison.
I kicked every one out of the room and got to work. After about 3 hours I got the poison out and fixed his head.
I was drained and walking funny because of it. I slowly walked out of the room and they all looked at me.
"He'll be fine. Might be asleep for a couple days but will be awake." I said with again no emotion and spoke in barley a whisper because I had no energy. I slowly started to walk away before Isabelle called me.
"Wait! Magnus!"
I turned around and looked at everyone Isabelle, Jace, Clary and even Simon.
"We aren't happy you broke up with Alec because he told us what happened and you really need to let him explain but we know how it felt for you and looking at the both of you I can tell you are going through pain. Any idea how you go Skinner or got two giant scars?"
I looked at all of them and looked down at the floor.
"If you want we can go to the library. Talk?"
I looked at all of them and slowly nodded my head. Letting them lead the way and walking far behind.
Once we sat down I took a deep breath not knowing what to say first.
"Um..... I-its alot so where do you want to know first?"
"The scars?"
"After Alec's visit I got upset and decided to go out on a hunt to clear my mind. Not really knowing what to look for in fact. But I ran into Camille and I started a fight with her. She scratched me pretty deep leaving the scar on my face.
For my neck I started having a panic attack. I had a bad day and started remembering Alec and bad memories from my past and kind blew up in my apartment. My magic burning most things like my make up and glitter and leaving that scar on my neck."
I looked up at all of them and then quickly looked away. Not trusting myself right now.
"Why not heal them?" I looked over at Simon and shrugged my shoulders.
"I don't know. I just don't feel like it."
"Magnus. Are you keeping something from us?"
I looked at Clary and saw my vision blur with tears. Clary quickly sat by me
"I guess since I didnt have Alec anymore these were ways to remember him, I wanted to see him again, get back together. But After my set back with my magic I couldn't trust myself looking at anyone or even leaving my house.
So I locked myself in there. I then got into drugs by making someone slide them under my door and then drank every alcohol I could find in my apartment. I'm clean now but its been the hardest thing I've had to deal with in 400 years."
I looked down at my hands that were shaking and saw tears drop on them.
"Magnus. Shhh. You need to calm down, okay?"
"I-I try but nothing works."
I felt Clary hug me tighter and my breathing slowly calmed down. When she pulled away I noticed Isabelle on my other side and Jace and Simon were still in their seats giving me an actual sad look.
"H-how did you do that?"
"Pressure point. It calms nerves."
I nodded my head and looked at the ground.
"How am I going to apoligze to Alec? He's not any better than I am. I can tell he's been drinking a lot and not sleeping."
"Magnus did Alec not tell you?"
"Tell me what?"
"Alec. He's been cutting too."
