It's been about a week. I haven't left my room at all. I haven't let anyone in. I don't eat or sleep. All I do is cry, drink and occasionally cut. I have them all over my hands, arms and some on my legs.
It's just more scars to add to the ones I already have from battles or my father.
I slowly walked to my bathroom stepping over old clothes, my desk I pushed over and broken glass of beer bottles.
When I got in my bathroom I looked in the mirror. I haven't showered or brushed my hair. My eyes have bags under them, my skin is paler, and I'm defiantly lost weight.
I looked at my phone and noticed missed calls. 2 from Clary, 1 from mom, 6 from Jace and 5 from Isabelle. After I stopped answering them through the door they decided to just try and call me to get my distractions.
The pain just got worse by that because all I've been doing it upsetting my friends and family.
I walked back to my bed and grabbed a new bottle of whiskey to drink...
-3 hours later-
After being highly intoxicated I walked out of my room for the first time. Not knowing what exactly what I was doing.
"Alec? You okay?"
I looked behind me and saw Clary. I gave her a nod and told her I'm good and I thought some fresh air would be good. I continued to walk through the institute and made it outside.
My mind didnt know where we were going but my feet were taking me somewhere.
I then realized I was at Magnus' apartment and a few tears ran down my face. I didn't know why I was here but I thought since I am why not knock?
- Magnus POV -
My entire appartment is filled with food containers, old clothes and barley any light since I closed every curtain.
I'm currently watching If I Stay on tv when I hear a knock on the door. I look at it confusingly but hear another knock. So I get up and open the door.
What I didn't know it that Alec was going to be standing in front of me with tear stained eyes and new ones coming down, pale and skinny face, with giant bags under his eyes.
His posture has changed since the last time and I can smell alcohol, stronger than anything I've smelled which means he drinks a couple hours everyday.
"I----I........ Don't know w-why I'm here. I-im so s-sorry. I'll go."
Alec slowly turned away and when he was almost down the hall I yelled for him.
"Wait! You obviously came for a reason, even if you don't know it yet. And it's starting to rain and it doesn't help that your highly intoxicated and easier to kidnap than you once were."
He stopped and looked at me and I could clearly see all the pain in his eyes. His eyes weirdly looked different too. He looked down at me and nodded.
I walked him inside and sat him on the couch. I sat next to him too and used my magic to at least make some of that drunk mind slightly better.
"Why are you here though Alec?"
"I don't k-know. One m-minute I'm in b-bed drinking and then I-I'm walking out o-of the institute t-to come here."
I noticed his stutter came back. Which hurt me more because it only happens when he's scared/nervous.
"Alec are you nervous? Or scared?"
Alec looked at me slowly and closed his eyes.
"A- a little b-bit of b-both."
"Alec---."
"I'm sorry! I-I miss you like crazy and w-what I did was wrong. B-but what y-you did was wrong t- to. Instead of listening to me You l-left me. In that subway with C-Camille."
"Did she do something Alec?"
"Maureen punched m-me. But n-no-one knows this but w-hen Maureen walked off C-Camille threatened to kill me if try to f-find her again."
"Again?"
"W-hen you left me. I-I wanted to try and k-kill her or Maureen. T- to prove something to y-you I guess."
I looked at Alec and leaned in to kiss him. He was slightly taken back but soon relaxed.
When I pulled away I mentally slapped myslef.
"Alec I'm sorry but no matter what, you went behind my back and talked to the one person I dated who was a living hell to be with and your mortal Alec. One day you won't be here and I have to go through that pain."
"M-Magnus please."
"Alec I'm sorry but you need to leave."
And for the second time I watched the same person I love leave me again.
