I Know a Place

I love you cammie...

--next morning--
Shannon pov:
"Shanny wake up!" I hear someone say. I open my eyes to see ally standing over me. "What?" I cover my face with the couch pillow. "Do you have any pills? I have a major hangover" she says a little softer because Cari is cuddled up to me. "Uh yeah. I'll get it" I try and move out of her grip but she pulls me in closer. "Maybe not. Babe, you need to let go" I say and try and loosen her grip. "Please don't leave" she says with her eyes closed. "I really don't want to but I have to" I say and she lets go. Ally and I go to my bathroom to get some Advil in my cabinet. When we get back downstairs, we find Cari crying on the couch. "Hey baby, what's wrong?" I run over to her and hold her in my arms. " I-i thought you left me" she said holding me close to her. "I did. I had to help ally get some pills" I say still confused. "I thought you left me for good" she clarified and I shake my head. "Why would I do that? That's literally the last thing I want to do" I say and kiss her forehead. "I-i don't know. I had a bad dream that you left me for someone else" she says sadly and I hug her tight. "I would never do that. Plus seeing you like this makes my heart hurt. Don't worry, babe. I'll always be right here" I say. "But I gotta pee real fast" I add and run to the bathroom

Cari pov:
"Bad dream my ass" ally says after Shannon leaves the room. "What are you talking about?" I ask. "I know what happened last night, Cari. Between you and Cammie. Yes, everyone else was drunk but I was watching out for my best friend" she says and the memory of last night comes back to me. "Do I tell her?" I ask and she shrugs. "It's only been a week since they've broken up and I don't know if she's mentally prepared to hear what Cammie said. I know for a fact that she loves you. But she may still love Cammie too" she says the last part softly. "I'd feel guilty if I didn't tell her. But again what if she ran back into her arms?" I feel tears form in my eyes and ally comes sit right next to me. "She'll do anything for the ones she loves and she'll prevent from hurting them. I don't know what she's gonna do but usually she knows what she's doing" she assures me before Shannon comes back down. "Oh my god I just spent a couple minutes on the toilet daydreaming about life if I was straight... it would be kinda boring" Shannon says and we both laugh awkwardly. She furrows her eyebrows at us. "What's wrong with you two? You guys are looking at me like I'm a ghost or something" she says and sits next to us. "It's just I'm still kinda shaken up" I give her a sad smile and she gives me the same expression. "You don't have to worry, I'm right here" she kisses my forehead and smiles at me. "What's up with you?" She asks ally. "I uh just imagined how you would be if you were straight. That would crazy" ally lies and looks back at me. "Right! Also... Babe, Cammie asked me if I can meet her for breakfast" she says and I turn all my attention to her. "What?!?" I kinda raise my voice. "Well I wasn't gonna go if you're not comfortable with it but I just need closure, you know? We ended on bad terms and I'm just hoping we can still be friends" she says sadly and I can't hold her back from getting that closure. "You can go. I'm not your mom" I say and she looks at me surprised. "Don't worry baby, I'll be back in an hour or two" she pecks my lips and runs back up to get ready. "You sure you want her meeting up with Cammie?" Ally finally speaks up. "I can't tell her what to do. I just hope she makes the right decision" I say. "You know that decision may get not be with you?" She asks and I nod sadly. "I have no right to stand in the way of her happiness. I love her and I'll do anything to make her happy. Even if it's not with me" I hate myself for saying that but it's the truth. I love her too much to see her suffering.

Shannon pov:
So right now I'm waiting for Cammie at Starbucks because this is where she said she'd be but she's not here. I texted her and she texted me back saying she'll be here in a few minutes. Why am I here exactly? Like every relationship that ends badly, they always need some kind of closure. Cammie and I situation ended just like a switch of a light. I moved on faster than I ever thought but Cari is something special. I can't really put my finger on it, I just have a feeling I'll be better with her. I know it was too early to say 'I love you' but I honestly love her. She was the missing piece to my incomplete heart. I must've been so deep into my thought to notice Cammie sitting across of me. "Hey" she says and I make eye contact with her. "Hi" I say and fidget with my ring. "Thank you for agreeing to meet with me" she said and I nod. "So why did you do it?" I get right into it. "Because you were always busy with your job and never had time for me" she says and I kinda felt guilty. "We could've talked it out. I could've made time for you" I say in pain and look up to see her looking back at me. "I tried but you were always too busy looking at that damn computer" tears start to leave her eyes and I could see that I really hurt her. "You know YouTube is my job and I want to keep doing it for my fans. That's why you started to do it too" I say and she shakes her head no. "I started doing it because you like it so much. That's the only time I got your attention" she makes it even worse by saying that. "Cheating wasn't the best choice. You knew I started to get more busy when I won the LGBT British award. And I'm sorry that I didn't give much attention but I was more attentive to you for most of the time we were together" I say. "Like you were any better, you kissed Ella behind my back!" She began to raise her voice. "That was for a short film and you knew about it" I say frustrated. "Yeah I knew about the film but you didn't tell me anything about KISSING HER! Or you and her would both end up naked on a bed" she says furiously. "It was acting. I felt nothing for her. See this is why our relationship was going down hill, because you never trusted me" I put my face in my hands because by now I'm so stressed out. "You know I had trust issues because of my last relationship. You were the only one I let in after her" she says calmly. "What about Kara? You were with her for a month of our relationship" I say still not looking at her. "I needed to relieve my stress. She was there when you weren't" she says and I feel my heart break. "So from what I got from all of this is, you only cheated on me because I didn't give you the attention you needed and you don't trust me" I say and look at her. "Well one more thing..." she doesn't finish her sentence. "What is that thing Cammie?" I ask. "I still love you Shannon. I can't get you out of my head. I want to be with you again" she says and I'm taken back a bit. "But you have Kara" I'm so confused. "I don't want Kara as much as I want you" she has tears stream from her eyes. "I have Cari" I say still not knowing what to say. "You've only known her for a week. How can you possibly choose a week relationship over a 3 and a half year relationship?" She asks and I shrug. "When you fall out of love with that 3 and a half year relationship" I say and she looks at me in shock. "You don't love me anymore, do you?" She painfully says. "I do. I just can't trust that you won't cheat on me again. Plus Cari, I'm in love with her" I say and it looks like I just shot her with a gun. "Don't you feel anything for Kara?" I add and she shakes her head. "She's not you. I'm not in love with her, I'm in love with you! Why can't you understand that?" She says with tears streaming down her faces. I get out of my seat and hold her in my arms. I let her cry with me holding her close and I feel that little spark I had when I first met her. Shit!!! Not right now heart. You only get to choose one. I told myself and my heart beats even faster. "I love you Cammie. But I can't just run back to you. I still have Cari and I love her too" I say and she pulls away from the hug looking me straight in the eyes. She moves in and closes the space between us. Her lips on mine and to be honest, I missed them so much. I kiss her back and I feel her smile into the kiss. "You know, every time I with Kara I always see you. I'm usually so drunk that I see things and it feels like I'm with you" she says making me laugh. "Kinda killed the mood" I say and pull away from her. "Will I see you again?" She smiles and I shrug. "You know this isn't gonna be an easy decision. I love her too. If you don't see me again, you'll know what I decided" I say and she nods sadly. "But if all goes to worse, we can still be best friends" I say and hug her again. "I'm telling ally you said that" we laugh together. I kiss her forehead before going our separate ways. I fucking hate myself! This is gonna be harder than I thought.

Cari pov:
"She's leaving me" I say as I'm pacing back and forward through the living room. "She loves you Cari, maybe she'll be with you" Amy says and I shake my head. "She's been with Cammie for how long? I don't think she'll choose me" I say and Amy grabs my arm to sit me down. "What do you want most for Shannon?" She asks me and that simple. "I want her happy" I say and she nods. "So whatever she chooses, are you going to be happy for her, even if she doesn't choose you?" She asks and I nod again. "She deserves to be happy, you do too. But you know this is harder for her. She's going through all of this by herself. The one things she hates the most is hurting the ones she loves. Just think what's going on in her head right now" she says and I know she's going through a lot of emotions. "You're right. I can't believe I fell for her in a week" I say and lie down. "Well she is hot. I would too but she's not my type" Amy says and I laugh. "What is your type?" I ask and she shrugs. "Miles. He's such a sweetheart. But we're just friends and I don't think he sees me more than a friend" she says sadly. "Ask him out? He's a cutie. Or I'll tell him" I say and she shakes her head. "You wouldn't dare" she says. "But I would" I get out my phone and she stops me. "Okay I'll do it" she says defeated. "You do that while I wait for Shannon" I say and shoo her away. "Thank you Amy!" I yell while she runs up the stairs.

I'm on the couch on my phone until I feel it snatched out of my hand. I look up to meet the blue eyed beauty I fell in love with. "Okay let me talk first. She cheated on me because I didn't give her the attention in our relationship. She told me things I didn't know and I feel guilty that our relationship went downhill because of my job. She still loves me, I still love her and you. We kissed. Please don't be mad at me" she says mad I just smile at her. "I'm not mad at you. I don't know how I could ever be mad at you. So where does that leave us?" I ask calmly. "Leaves us wherever my heart leads. I love you and I wouldn't want to leave you for the world but I hate the situation I put myself in" she says and I hold her hands in mine. "I would do anything for love. Even if it's letting go a beauty like you. I love seeing you happy and I have come to terms with the fact that you may not choose me. But that's only because your happiness means the world to me. I love your smile and I don't want to go a day without seeing it. You make the decision, I will go with it. I love you Shannon and nothing will change that" I kiss her with all passion and love. I feel her kiss back and smile into the kiss. I get up and kiss her one last time. "Where you going?" She asks and get all my stuff. "I'm giving you time and space. I don't want to be messing up your decision. I'll be at carters if you need me" I say and leave her apartment.

--5 in the afternoon--
Shannon pov:
I spent the whole day deciding. It hasn't gone too far. I could make up my mind one hour and change it right when I find the courage to go find the one. But I've been lying on my bed thinking about what it feels like to be with both of them. Cammie was the one I wanted to marry, the one I thought I was gonna have kids with, the one I fell in love through the internet, and she's the one that made me feel like I was the world to her. Than there's Cari, she is my love at first sight, she is the missing piece to my heart, and she makes me feel like a better version of myself. How can you choose between your soulmate and your love at first sight? Ally walks in my room and lie right next to me and stare at the ceiling. "How's it going?" She says. "I'm frustrated. How could you choose between two beautiful girls?" I say and she turns to look at me. "You know you can always follow your heart. It never did you wrong. Remember back in high school you couldn't choose between what college you wanted to go to. It was between OU and UTA but you told me your heart was leaning towards OU. Look at you now, all grown up with a degree in finance" she says making me smile. "You always know what to say, that's why you're my best friend... for now" I say the last part softly. "What was that?" She asks and I laugh to myself. "Nothing. I know what I have to do" I get up from my bed and put on my shoes. "Are you going out like that?" She laughs at me. I look down to see that I'm in my pajama shorts and Calvin Klein sports bra. I shrug it off and run out my apartment. I get into my car and drive to my destination. She's the one. I know for sure she's the one. I love her and I know that I'm making the right decision. I'm gonna be with her till we're gray and old. My heart will lead me to her...

Yeah let's all hate me for leaving at a cliffhanger. At least I have something to write for the next chapter. So who did Shannon pick? I know who she picked, do you? So see you guys in a couple of days. Enjoy❤️
-Stephanie✌️