I Know a Place

Am I dead?

(Can't believe I'm writing this again)
--2 weeks go by--
Cari pov:
"You are so pretty and I like you so much" a very drunk Nicole Haught says. I am currently re-watching Wynonna Earp because I love this show so much. Also because Shannon is filming a video with ally right now. I've been lying in her bed for most of the morning drooling over officer dimples and loving every wayhaught scene. I wonder how Shannon would look in a police uniform... probably sexy as hell. Wow those hormones are really kicking in. I continue watching tv until my phone went off. It's from my manager.

John🕺:
J: I got some bad news...
C: Hi to you too, what is it?
J: Well you maybe kinda sorta have to go back to Nashville😬
C: WHAT!!! I thought had a little more time in LA
J: You do... if one day counts as 'a little more time'
C: ONE DAY! John, why didn't you tell me sooner?
J: Cause you were enjoying your time with Shannon and I didn't want to ruin it by telling you😕
C: Well if you told me, I wouldn't have spent most of the watching tv. I could've been spending my time with her!😡
J: I'm sorry. Just please you have to go back to Nashville to finish up your songs and then you're right back on tour👌
C: What about her? What am I suppose to say to her?
J: Just be honest, a couple of months without each other won't do any harm🙂
C: MONTHS! I can't even go an hour without her. Ugh John! When is the flight?
J: 10 in the morning...
C: I'll see you there. Bye.

Months without Shannon will be the death of me. How are we suppose to enjoy the honeymoon phase when I'm always gonna be moving around without her? How will I know that she'll still be waiting when I come back? I get up from her bed and decide that I have to tell her. I can't just get up and leave. I get to the other room to hear them both moving around. Next thing I hear this loud pop. "Okay Shannon next time you have to give it to me hard" I hear ally say. What the hell are they doing? I open the door slowly to see them facing the wall, Ally is bend forward while Shannon holds a balloon between the both of them. I try to contain my laughter but this was too funny. They turn around and they look at me in shock. "ITS FOR A VIDEO!" They say in sync while moving away from each other. "What the hell are you two doing?" I say in between laughter. "Trying to make a balloon baby" ally says and Shannon shakes her head. "Yup two lesbians are totally capable of doing that" I say and they both frown. "What's up babe?" Shannon asks while walking towards me. "I have to tell you something, are you almost finished?" I asks and she nods. "Give us twenty minutes and then I'm all yours" she kisses my cheek and I close the door on my way out.

Time goes by and I am now trying to figure out what to say to her. "So what did you have to tell me?" Shannon says while entering her room and lying next to me. "Uh I have some bad news..." I say. "Okay... are you gonna tell me?" She asks and I nod. "I maybe have to go back to Nashville" I say and she sits up. "Well of course you do silly. You still have a career. We can spend the rest of the time we have together now. When do you leave exactly?" She asks. "Tomorrow..." I say and her jaw drops. "Okay... um. Wow. How long have you known?" She says with a frown on her face. "I found out an hour ago. John says I leave in the morning" I say and Shannon looks like she's on the verge of crying. "H-hh- how long will you be gone?" She asks trying to hold back the tears. "He said a couple of months because I got to record some songs for my album and then go back on tour" I say sadly. Shannon doesn't even care anymore, she lets out the tears and cries into my arms. "What am I suppose to do without you? I can't even deal a minute without you. I'm gonna miss you so much" she says and I'm now Crying. "We can FaceTime, text, call. Anything you want. I'll do" I say and she pulls away from me. "But I want you" she says wiping the tears. "I know baby. I have to do this" I say and she gets up. "I need some air" she walks out and leaves me shocked by her reaction. I lay on her bed just thinking about how the next few months will be without her. Hoping it won't last as long as I think it will. These pass few weeks with her was amazing but no one knows about us. Only her friends and mine. I want the whole world to know but I just found out I was gay. I really need to talk to her.

--8 at night--
Shannon pov:
I'm gonna stay out here. I went to get something for Cari and I'm standing outside of my own apartment. I'm just staring at the door, wondering if I should knock or just walk in. I know for sure Cari will start yelling at me and all that but I just can't believe she's leaving. Months without her will be hell. My phone has been blowing up with messages and calls from everyone. You know what, I'm gonna walk in there and show Cari we could do this. We can have this relationship no matter how far we are. I walk in and all my roommates are on the couch. They look at me in shock but I walk straight to my room. When I get there my heart breaks a little. Cari is lying with my hoodie, dry makeup running down her face, and she looks like she is having a hard time sleeping. I walk over to her and comb my hand through her beautiful blonde hair. She starts to store in her sleep but melts into my touch. "It's okay baby, I'm here now" I whisper and she opens her eyes. When she realizes it me, she jumps into my arms and cries. "Don't leave me. Please don't ever do that again without calling me or texting" she says and cries some more. "I'm sorry. I had to get you something. Also needed to clear my mind" I say and I let her go. "What'd you get me?" She says with a sad smile. I hand her a small long black box. "Open it" I say and she does as she is told. When she sees what's inside she brings me in to a long passionate kiss. "I love you" she says and I smile. I got her a diamond necklace with S and C engraved into the heart. "So you like it?" I ask and she nods. "Like it, I love it" she says and pecks my lips. "I got it so you won't forget about me. So you know if you feel like you're alone in this world, you'll always have me and I will always be there for you. I wanted to show you that I will bring you back on your feet when you go through the worst in life. I won't turn my back on you, even if we don't last forever. It's because I love you so much Cari fletcher. I want you to know that I have never loved anyone, the way that I love you" I say and she's literally in tears. "Oh shanbee, you don't know how happy you make me. I will love you forever and never forget about you" she says and I hold her tight. "I have a surprise for you" she adds while pulling away. "What is it?" I ask and she shakes her head. "You gotta close your eyes" she says and I do as I am told. I hear her shuffling around and for five minutes straight I keep my eyes closed. "Okay open them" Cari says and I'm not gonna lie but I think I just lost my jaw. "Am I dead? I think I'm in heaven" I say and she laughs. Standing right in front of me is a naked Cari fletcher and I'm not gonna say that this turned me in but it did. "Do you like what you see?" She ask while walking towards me. "I-ii- i um no... yes I mean yes. Fuckin yes" I say and I feel my heart beating faster. When she reached me she gives me one long passionate kiss and before she could pull away I pull her even closer. "Someone is impatient" she says and kisses down my neck. "Ar-are you sure you want to do this?" I attempt to say and I feel her smile against my neck. "You can guide me baby. I'm all yours tonight" she says and she pushes me down onto the bed. This is gonna be a rough night.
*no smut. Sorry*

--Later that night--
"Woah" I say after countless rounds of making love to cari. "That was great" a out of breath Cari says. "I love you" I say and kiss her one more time. "I love you too" she says aback and cuddles into my chest. "We'll make be okay, right?" I ask and she nods. "It's only a couple of months. I will make sure I call you everyday and go to sleep with you at night" she says and I close my eyes. "This next couple of months are gonna be rough" I say with heavy eyes. "As long as I have you, nothing can go wrong" she says and I feel my eyes drifting into deep sleep. "I really love you Shanbee. More than I ever could" she adds and that is the last thing I heard before knocking out from the crazy day I just had. It's only a couple months, what could go wrong?

I have never hated school this much in my life. I'm literally so tired. First week wasn't too bad though. Just lost some friends and that's about it. I don't know what the hell is happening around the world but there is a possibility that a nuclear bomb could be headed towards Hawaii or Guam. Fun. I don't know how to feel about this but scared. If  it hits Hawaii, my home is completely destroyed including everyone in it. Or Guam where it's in distance of Hawaii which still could kill thousands of people. Idk. I hope this chapter isn't as crappy as I think. Enjoy❤️
   -Stephanie✌️