I Know a Place

"It wasn't my fault"

Shannon pov:
"Goodbye baby. Please call me when you land. I'm gonna miss you so much" I say hugging Cari super tight. "I'm gonna miss you too, Shan. It's only a couple months and I'll be back in no time. Don't forget about me" she says with tears in her eyes. "Never. I love you" I give her one last kiss before she has to leave for her flight. "I love you too babe. I'll see you soon" she kisses my cheek and walks into her gate. I wait until I finally see her plane take off. Tears forced its way out of my eyes and I feel my heart ache. It's only a couple months, what harm could that do. I'm gonna miss my blonde angel.

-5 hours later-
"Are you alright? Did you make it to your hotel? Do you have all your stuff? Where's your phone? Do you have your charger?" I constantly asks her questions without her even answering them. "Slow your horses shan. I'm okay. Yes I made it to my hotel. John has all my stuff. I'm literally talking to you through my phone and I do have my charger. Don't worry too much" she says and I let out a sigh. "You're so far away for my comfort and I just want to know if you're gonna be safe without me" I say sadly. "Baby I know. I can't believe we'll be spending our one month anniversary through FaceTime" she says with a huge frown on her face. "And maybe our two month, three month, and four month anniversary. Ugh this is gonna be the worst couple of months" I say frustrated with our situation. "I'm sorry" she says with her head down. "Baby it's okay. I wish I could kiss you right now" I give her a sad smile. "You can when this is all over. I got to go. I love you" she smiles and I smile back. "I love you too. Bye" I say and end the call. 6 hours down, a billion more to go.

--1 week later--
"Happy 1 month anniversary Shannon" Cari says through the phone. "Happy 1 month baby. Did john give you the gift?" I ask and she nods happily. "I really love it shan. It's so beautiful" she looks down at the ring I got her. "So how's Canada? My best friend lives there" I say. "I don't live here" she says making us both laugh. "No you weirdo. Vanessa lives in Canada. You should really meet her. She helped me a lot for the past five year" I say and she nods. "One day baby. So how have you been?" She asks me and I shrug. "Okay I guess. I just want to hold you in my arms already" I say with a frown in my face. "I will be back as soon as you know it. Okay?" She says and I nod. "I love you" I say and she smiles. "I love you more. I gotta go. I'll call you after my show" she says and we say our goodbyes before hanging up. One week down...

--1 month later--
A month without her... damn I miss her so much. For the past month we tried so hard to talk to each other everyday but everyday became every other day to whenever she had time for me. It's sucks so much but that's what happens when you date a singing sensation. I'm just happy she's happy. My thoughts get interrupted by the her song wasted youth playing on my phone which means she's calling me. I pick up my phone and answer it. "Okay so I got 5 minutes before my show and I just wanted to see you" Cari says making me smile. "You'll do great" I say and she laughs. "You tell me that every time. This crowd is huge and I heard that there are special people here. I'm so nervous" she says. "You do great every time. Just be you and you'll be rocking the whole stadium" she starts crying out of nowhere and I don't know what to do. "Baby your make up is gonna get ruined. Why are you crying?" I ask and she wipes her tears. "I really miss having you by my side" she says and I nod. "Me too. Now go, you have a show to rock" I say and we say our goodbyes. It's hard but time is nothing compared to our love for each other. A couple more months won't hurt.

--5 months--
"I don't think this is working out..." Cari says on FaceTime. "What do you mean? I thought it was going fine" I say feeling my heart getting heavier. "I can't come back Shannon. They extended my tour and they want me to stay in Nashville for as long as they could keep me. This has been going on for 5 months, I don't think we can be together anymore" she says and I feel tears form in my eyes. "Why didn't you do this from the beginning? You know I'd wait for you no matter what, why now?" I ask finally feeling the tears run down. "I thought it would work. But this relationship is holding me back from my career. I need to let you go" she says with no emotions at all. "Whatever Cari. Don't worry about me or my feelings. Don't worry about the amount of time I waited up at night just to hear your voice before I slept. Fuck all the morning I woke up, wishing you were next to me. I should've gone back to Cammie when I had the chance. Have a good life" I say and hang up. I feel myself get weaker and weaker just the thought of Cari. She just broke up with me. I guess dating a pop sensation isn't a good thing at all.