Alone

Chapter 9

- Christina's POV -

"Christina?" He asked.

"Jordan. Hi." I said.

"Can we talk?" He asked.

"Sure." I said, as I followed him outside where we could be alone.

"I've missed you Christina." He said, pulling me in for a hug but I immediately pushed him away.

"Are you kidding me? You just left, you never said goodbye. When I went away, you never called once. I was alone for 3 entire months. And you say you've missed me? You sure as hell haven't acted like it!"

"I'm sorry. It's just it was better if I left you with Adam. People wouldn't believe you were with him if you were spending all your time with me. It was better for you."

"It was better for me?! I had no one for three months. You told me I'd never be alone, you lied to me Jordan."

"I'm sorry Christina. I just-"

"I don't care Jordan. I really don't care anymore." I said as I walked back to Adam who was still sitting where I'd left him. He could tell I was upset.

"Didn't go so well?" He asked. I just shook my head as I took a sip of my drink. That one sip then led to many more and eventually I was completely drunk. Jordan had been the one to keep me away from alcohol but with him out of the picture, I had nothing stopping me.

"Adam kiss me." I said, smiling at him. He obliged and kissed me. I don't know why I wanted him to kiss me but some part of me hoped that Jordan was watching.

I woke up the next morning alone in bed, naked once again. I'm assuming I was with Adam last night, hopefully. I got out of bed with the sheet and wrapped it around me, I honestly couldn't be bothered to get dressed. I walked downstairs to find Jordan in the kitchen.

"What the hell are you doing here!?" I shouted, almost tripping over the bed sheet as I stepped back.

"Relax. You passed out last night and Adam was pretty drunk too so I brought the two of you back here. You woke up when you got home and by the looks of things you and Adam got um.." He paused, looking me over and then smirked before finishing his sentence, "...busy."

I rolled my eyes, "Well why are you still here?" I asked coldly.

"I just wanted to make sure you were ok when you woke up and by the looks of things, you are fine." He said as he smirked once again.

"Where's Adam?" I asked, snapping him from his thoughts.

"Oh, he went out. Said he had some band stuff to take care of."

"Right. Well I should probably go put some clothes on." I said, spinning on my heels and walking up the stairs. Though I could still here Jordan shout from downstairs, "You don't have to." I rolled my eyes as I ignored his comment and continued my way up to my room.

I got changed and went back downstairs where Jordan was waiting in the kitchen.

"I made you a coffee." He said, handing me the coffee.

"Thanks." I said as I sat up at the bench. Jordan took the seat across from me as he began to drink his coffee too.

"So, what are we doing today?" He asked.

"We are not doing anything. You are going home." I said as I got off my seat and began to walk away. He quickly ran after me and grabbed my waist, spinning me around.

"You're still angry?"

"Of course I am!" I said, now even more annoyed at him because of his stupid question. He then did something that surprised me to no end. He kissed me.

When he broke the kiss he whispered in my ear, "I promise you'll never be alone again. I'll never leave you." As soon as he said that, he let go of me and walked out.

- Jordan's POV -

Up until now I wasn't sure what I felt for Christina. It wasn't until she went away did I truly realise how much I needed her. Then I saw her last night at the party and again this morning and that only reassured what I felt for her. I love her.

After I left Christina's house I went to the one person who I thought could help me. Allison.

"What's wrong?" She asked, as we both took a seat on her couch.

"I love Christina." I blurted out.

I could see that the way her expression changed she truly felt sorry for me.

"She'll never love you back Jordan."

"What do you mean?"

"She won't let herself fall in love again. Not after what happened to her last time." I gave her a questioning look so she spoke again, "She fell in love so fast. It was a love that I personally had never seen before, it was magical. You can't imagine what the break up was like for her, she went into a downwards spiral and afterwards she was a completely different person. She won't fall in love again, she can't. There'll be nothing left." She spoke the last sentence ever so softly, I could barely hear what she said.

"What happened to them?" I asked, referring to Christina and her ex.

"Over the last few months of their relationship things just deteriorated. They would fight all the time and everyone could see things weren't right. Christina couldn't bare the pain anymore, she knew she had to end it. So she did."

"Why did she end it if she loved him so much?"

"She did it for him. She wanted him to be happy and she knew he couldn't be happy while they were fighting all the time. If you love someone enough you'd do anything for them."

After I left Allison's my next few days were spent building up the courage to face Christina again. After the fourth day I was finally ready. I drove to her house where she awkwardly invited me inside.

"Christina I'm really sorry about kissing you the other day. I have no idea what came over me."

"It's cool. It happens to the best of us." She said as she let out a half-hearted laugh. I could tell she was still a little bit uncomfortable.

Christina and I just talked for the next few hours. Things were finally getting back to normal and somehow the topic of my previous girlfriends was brought up.

"So, how many girlfriends have you had?" She asked.

"About 4."

"What happened with them?"

"They weren't right for me. What about you? How many boyfriends have you had?" As soon as I asked that question I wish I could of taken it back. Her expression changed and she tried her best to stay composed as she spoke.

"Just one. Things um, didn't work out so great."

"Oh, I'm sorry."

"I'll be right back." She said, getting off the couch and dashing up stairs.

During my time downstairs, waiting for Christina. I got thinking about Allison's words. Love is all about sacrifice. If I really love Christina I need her to be happy and I know that right now she is anything but happy. I know what I need to do now.