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I need to rant im sorry

I'm really sorry I'm doing this. But I really need to rant right now.

A few days, two of my sisters (I have 3) and a friend of mine were cleaning with me because our mom wanted the house clean. Our brother helped too. But then, the youngest girl of the family didn't want to clean. Our mom wasn't there so there was nothing we could do. We gave her two options: nap in Mom's room or help clean.

She wasn't choosing either so we carried her into the room (she's 4 she wasn't that heavy). Then, she opened the door and started a fricking massacre with her nails. First she scratched my older sister, then she scratched my younger sister and then she scratched me.

*inhale*

I wasn't doing anything.

I was SWEEPING.

And she scratched me.

I literally started bleeding.

Then she scratched the youngest and only boy.

Now let's skip to the part when Mom came home, shall we?

We told Mom what happened and she said that we weren't being nice to her but it wasn't okay that she hurt my brother. The thing that sucks was the fact that I was asking her nicely to help us clean. So I was scolded for being nice and cleaning.

But then, a feeling washed over me. Mom didn't care about us older ones. She only cared about that prissy ass brat I call my sister and my turtle of a brother.

Whenever we did something, anything, she wouldn't acknowledge.

I don't feel loved anymore.

I feel like I'm just someone that's used for cleaning a house.

I haven't been feeling cared about lately and it pisses me off.

I feel... used.

I feel... useless.

I feel... like I don't want to exist.

I'm a terrible person for writing this down and letting you read it.

I feel like an attention whore trying to get people to feel bad for me.

Goddammit.

I apologize for being such a brat.

Don't worry about me, guys.

I'll be fine.

I just need some advice.

What can I do to stop feeling worthless?

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When I get closer to an answer, a circle gets filled in.

I stole this from one of my books.

I stole my own content.

Heh.

Bai.