Cameron Monaghan Imagines and Preferences

~Ian Imagine~ By Myself~

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Things seemed really peachy at the beginning, Ian was so happy when I told him I was pregnant with out baby, but now that she is here Ian hasn't left the bed for two days and I'm going out of my goddamn mind.

I have a newborn to look after and I feel like I'm doing it all alone when it should be a team effort. I've finally got Freya to sleep so I could try and get Ian to at least look at me... maybe even get him to take his meds.

I walked into our shared bedroom to see the curtains closed and Ian laying on the bed wrapped in a cocoon of blankets, the sight bringing a tear to my eye but also gives me an angry feeling in the pit of my stomach yet sympathy because I know this isn't him... its the bipolar.

I walked to the side of the bed Ian was facing and knelt down beside the bed and set the bottle of pills I had in my hand on the bedside table and sighed.

I moved my hand cautiously toward the quilt covering his face, "Ian, please, I'm worried about you and you haven't seen your daughter for 2 days... I can't do this by myself, please... at least take your meds or just eat something" all he did was bury his head into his pillow, and at that moment Freya started crying again.... I can tell it was because she missed her daddy. I took two pills out of the bottle and set them on the table and locked the bottle in the bathroom cabinet, when he is this depressed I get very paranoid that he will try to overdose.

I tried to calm Freya down but she wouldn't "Ian please, she wants her daddy please" I shouted over the baby's squawking. No answer.

I'm sat at the kitchen table cradling the crying baby as tears stream down my face, I need help... badly. I found my phone and called the only person who can help me with both the baby and to get Ian out of his depressive state.

The phone rang 3 time before he picked up the phone 'Hello?' He said quickly "Lip... please... I need help and I don't know what to do" I sobbed over the cries of my child. 'Hang in Y/N, I'll be there in 5, don't move'. "Okay" I breathed out and hung up the phone.

Literally 5 minutes later there was a knock on the door and I shot up and let Lip in, "Fuck, Y/N/N, you look terrible, where's Ian?" He asked and took Freya out of my arms, calming her instantly, "He won't get out of bed, Lip I can't do this by myself I'm going crazy... I haven't slept right since coming home and I haven't closed my eyes for two days because he won't do anything". I sobbed, Lip soon calmed both me and Freya down and got and got her back to sleep. "Okay Y/N/N, I'm going to check on Ian and see how he is... if he is really bad I'll call Fi to come and help you while I try and get through to Ian okay" I nodded and he disappeared upstairs.

He hasn't come down yet, Its been 15 minutes and I'm worried. There was a knock on the door, when I answered it was Fiona and I immediately gave her a hug and let out a few sobs and she calmed me down again.

"Y/N/N, why don't you have a nap on the sofa, I'll watch Freya" I nodded and whispered a soft thank you, as soon as my head hit the sofa cushion I was out like a light.

*3rd person PoV*

Lip had gotten Ian to sit up voluntarily which is a start. Fiona joined and she got him to take the pills that where left on the table.

"Ian, why do you feel like this" Lip asked and Ian slowly looked up "I'm not good enough, Y/N deserves someone who isn't fucked up like me" he croaked out, "Ian you can't think like that. You have two beautiful girls downstairs and they need you to step up, Y/N told me she hasn't slept for two days with a newborn baby that can drive someone insane, its going to take time but you need to pull your weight" Lip spoke some what harshly, which brought tears to Ian's bloodshot eyes "Lip I've fucked everything up, I bet Freya has seen more of Frank than she has me, how am I suppose to be a good dad if I can't even get out of my own fucking head" he sobbed ad he buried his head into Lip's chest.

"Ian don't say things like that, you will be the best farther ever you just need to keep taking your meds, me and Lip will take you to the clinic to get new pills and get you back on track" Fiona comforted him, stroking his hair as he sobbed his little heart out.

*Y/N PoV*

It must have been around a good 5 hours since I fell asleep, I sat up and noticed Fiona and Lip where sat talking at the kitchen table, in the chair next to the sofa sat Ian, his hair was all over the place, his eyes where puffy and bloodshot and it made me a little sad, but the smile on his face as he held our daughter in his arms just made that feeling melt away.

"Ian?" I asked and he looked up at me, when he saw me his smile dropped just a little, he stood up and set Freya down and sat next me, pulling me in for a hug and I was welling up.

"Y/N, I'm so sorry I'm going to step up, I'm going to the clinic tomorrow with Fiona and Lip for new meds because I love you and Freya, you shouldn't have to do this by yourself".

"I love you, we love you Ian... Thank you".

A/N: I hope you liked this, I enjoyed writing it, im sorry that ive been mia for like 2 months im just really lazy, anyway vote plz?
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