the next day was fucking terrible. everything that could have possibly gone wrong, went wrong.
i woke up to the sound of crinkling. ginger was on the end of my bed, holding onto a paper bag.
i rubbed my eyes, and motioned for ginger to come closer. "what's that?"
she climbed in bed next to me, and took a few things out of the bag. "well, i got you a plain bagel, since i have no idea how your stomach is feeling today. i also... got you a pregnancy test."
i groaned, and turned back around. "i don't wanna take one."
she carefully nudged me, and got out of the bed. "let's go, mase. pee on the fucking stick, woman up."
i dusted off ethan's sweatshirt, and tied my hair into a ponytail. "fine, i'll do it."
ginger handed it to me, and gave me a sweet look. "whatever happens, i'm here for you. i love you lots."
i gave her a weak smile, and opened the door to my bathroom. i took the test out of the bag, and took it out of its packaging.
deep breaths.
**
the test only took three minutes to read, but it felt like we had been waiting for years.
ginger and i sat in silence, until she noticed a stack of letters on my desk. "what are these?"
i looked over at them, and bit my lip. "they're letters, for ethan. hopefully, i'll be able to visit him soon."
ginger got up, and sat next to me. "do you... do you miss him?" she looked regretful.
i swiped at my eyes, and coughed. "yeah, i miss him a lot. i really do."
it was true, i missed him more than anything. i was always wearing his clothes, always hanging out with his family members... i just wanted him to be okay.
i wanted him to come back home, though. i was so beyond worried. so many thoughts raced through my mind throughout the day.
is he okay?
does he miss me?
is he feeling any better?
ginger helped me up, and gave me a bear hug. "i'm so sorry for asking about ethan."
i hugged her back, and gave her a sympathetic look. "it's okay, i promise. should we, um... check on the test?"
ginger's eyes widened. "oh god, yeah. i completely forgot." she ran into the bathroom, and came back with the tiny test. it was flipped over, so we couldn't see the results.
"are you ready?"
i didn't really know if i was ready or not, but i needed to find out what was going on.
i wiped my sweaty palms on my jeans, and cleared my throat. "yeah, i think so."
ginger held my hand, and flipped the test over. my heart felt as if it was trying to crawl out of my body.
there were two lines on the little screen.
i was pregnant.
**
a/n: if you're confused about when ethan got masen pregnant, it happened a few chapters back. it happened when they were in the pool together. it's very easy to miss, because i didn't write about them having sex (like i did in the hawaii chapter)... i wanted it to be a lot more vague.
p.s. thank u all for 666 reads!! lmao
