Written by: ALittleAfterMidnigt
Requested by: Reggie94
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"Are you actually jealous of Finn?" You asked your boyfriend who started to throw annoying remarks about how close you were to Finn. You didn't anticipate the day to start of this way but when you mentioned that Finn was helping you and Clarke in medical, he threw remarks that had a hint of accusations of you two sleeping together.
That summer day started out comforting, with a slight breeze echoing through the trees and leaves making them sway slightly and the sounds of the two of you fighting oscillated throughout the camp. The sun shone, its rays spreading across the camp giving everyone the energy needed to work around but giving your boyfriend enough energy to start a fight again.
"Maybe I am. I mean all you ever talk about is Finn this and Finn that. Maybe he should be the one who deals with your shit too" his reply felt like a little pinch to your heart
"Fuck you John Murphy. Hope you rot in hell" You said and stormed out of the tent. He followed you out and yelled one last time, "Maybe I'll see you there fucking the devil too" You turned around and slapped him to the point your hand felt numb. Tears gathered in the corner of your eyes waiting to be set free but you refused to show any sign of weakness in front of him or the others. You rushed to medical without looking back; but somewhere in your heart you wanted to turn back and tell him to stay safe. You wanted to hug and kiss him, in the unlikely event of him getting injured. Your heart told you something would happen but your pride was too high for you to turn your heel now.
You didn't know you'd regret it until later that day. You were usually in medical helping out Clarke, but that day was low on patients and Clarke offered to take care of them while you helped out in other parts of camp. You were engaged in a conversation with Harper when you heard yelling and screaming from outside the walls. The guards opened the door to see an unidentified body being dragged to medical but you observed the people walking in. Suddenly, your heart sank. It became a habit of yours to spot John between the group of hunters that went beyond the walls to get food for the camp but your eyes didn't spot the boy you grew to love ever so deeply. You followed them, rushing to medical to help treat the injured person, pushing through the curious crowd that started to pile around the dropship. "What happened?" You asked concern filling your voice. You didn't even attempt to hide it
"He followed a sound thinking it was a deer but it was a trap set by grounders to lure us in and attack us but John was the only one hurt", you heard an unfamiliar voice say. Your heart raced as you walked closer to the table and saw him laying there his face scrunched from the pain the grounders caused him. A hand of yours slowly but gently caressed his cheeks. You stared at him trying to take in his features. His right eye was black and swollen and bruises of different colors decorated different areas of his face but were hidden underneath the mixture of dirt and blood that occupied his beautiful features. You saw the boys leave and Clarke handed you a towel. You slowly started to wipe away the dirt and treat his wounds gently to avoid causing him even more pain. Low and soft groans left his slightly parted lips and manipulated the way your heart worked. You didn't know if your heart was there anymore, you didn't feel it beating and you swore you couldn't feel your pulse anymore. After treating his wounds, you sat next to him holding his hand while he remained in the sleeping state that felt like years. It was like a story you read on the ark, a girl fell into a state of deep sleep and she only woke up when the prince kissed her. You wished it was the same way; one kiss could wake him up and heal him. You could see the sun setting over the horizon, peacefully making its way to the other side of the earth. You hated yourself for not turning back, for not sharing a kiss with him before he left, for not hugging him and telling him to take extra pre-caution out there. You hated yourself even more for not ever telling him you loved him.
When the moon took over the sun and the sky was replaced with the dark blue color that was lit up with the moon's light and a few stars, you finally heard him say your name in a soft whisper. "John, oh my god hi" you said as you held his hand between both of yours. You saw him slowly sitting up and looking around confused, "Isn't there anything for this stupid pain that is actually going to kill me?" you heard him say and you rushed to a cabinet that had a drink to help reduce pain. You handed him a glass with the herb drink and you watched him chug on it. Once he was done, he looked up at you waiting for you to say something. "How could you be so dumb to even go out alone? You got hurt for Pete's sake and I was worried sick"
"I almost made it to hell, but hey I hanged on so I wouldn't rot there" He said, "Because I knew you'd worry a lot more if I made friendships with the devil"
"This isn't a time to joke John. You almost got yourself killed because of your stupid carelessness and now you're all in pain and distress. Screw you honestly for letting me worry this much about you"
"I mean you could any time, screw me if you didn't get the joke"
"Could you be serious for a minute? I could've lost you" You said as you finally took a seat next to him
"But you didn't. I'm still here talking to you, aren't I?"
"What if I did lose you? I wouldn't know what to do without your annoying self always being a pain in my ass. I love you so much to think something like that could happen to you" You said not realizing what you actually said. You saw his eyes light up and a smile growing and spreading across his face, "Do I need to get hurt all the time for you to tell me you love me?"
"What?" You asked confused and then your brain played backed what you just said to him. You just told him you loved him. Your heart palpitated faster than it ever did, your breaths getting shorter by the second but before you could say a word, a set of lips planted themselves onto yours. Although his lips were rough, it was the softest and most passionate kissed you shared. "I love you too" He said as his forehead rested on yours, "I love you more than you could ever know"
A/N: Sorry, I did divert a little away from the actual request but here it is, sorry for the wait and I hope you liked it
