Phan Fluff

Facing Fears

Summary: Dan feels afraid to come out to the internet, him and Phil film a Q and A together.
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'Phiiil come on we've gotta film the Q and A!' Dan shouted to Phil from his bedroom.
'I'm coming, I'm coming. And I still can't believe that you of all people weren't creative enough to come up with a better video idea' Phil replied in a slightly mocking tone.

'Well, this Q and A's gonna be special' Dan smirked.
'How exactly?'
'Can't tell you that, it's a surprise'
Phil tried to read the look on his face but it was almost expressionless minus the slight grin.

'You look good today by the way' Phil observed as he saw Dan push a curly strand of hair out of his face, only for it to then fall back over his eyes. Phil giggled and did it for him.
'Thanks, so do you' Dan replied leaning his head on Phil's shoulder. 'You smell good too'
Phil blushed.

Although they didn't always show it, Dan and Phil really did love eachother. It was the simple things that mattered to them, such as eating cereal together and cuddling on the sofa, playing video games and secretly letting the other win or else kissing them as a distraction.

Dan would never say it, perhaps because Phil already knew it, but Phil had helped Dan through a lot. Dan had always been a little unsure of himself, he was the sort of person that only seemed to see the bad in himself and never focus on the good. Whenever Dan was at his lowest, simply seeing Phil's smile, feeling his warm embrace was all the comfort he needed.

Another thing they loved about there relationship was that they got to work together making videos for their viewers. They shared everything with their audience.

Well, almost everything.

They had never announced that they were dating to anyone except close friends and family. This was for a number of reasons, because they didn't feel the need to, because it already seemed so obvious, but mainly because Dan was afraid.

Dan was afraid of what people would think, of what they would say. Phil really wanted them to come out but knew that Dan was scared. Despite his fear, Dan knew he would have to do it one day, and he really should trust his audience. He knew he could do it, when he was ready...

'Come on then, let's film' Dan said as he sat on his bed and gestured for Phil to follow.

'Hello internet'
'Hey guys!'
'So today I'm going to be doing a Q and A. Yes I'm so original I know' Dan began 'Oh yeah Phil's here too I forgot...'
'Hey, how could you forget about me!'
'Same way as you forgot not to eat my cereal' Dan giggled.

They went to twitter for questions, the first one being 'is Phil wearing odd socks right now?' To which Phil said yes and put his feet in the air, almost kicking Dan in the face.
'Careful Phil, Jesus Christ'

'Wait wait, here's another one, will Dan and Phil crafts be returning this year?'
'Well, we'll just have to wait and see won't we, wink wink'
Phil laughed at Dan's very unsecretive answer. They moved swiftly through the questions until they only had time for a couple more.

'Dan and Phil, Get a dog!' Phil read out.
'First of all, that's not a question Phil and second of all you know we can't get a dog'
'Maybe we could smuggle one into the flat and hide it in the closet whenever the landlord comes round'
'Phil!' Dan burst out laughing.
'Okay let's do one more question' Phil said, still laughing.

'Okay, are you and Phil dating?' Dan read out. Phil froze. He looked over at Dan, he almost swore he could see a mischievous glint in his eyes. But then before he had a chance to question anything Dan was kissing him.

Phil, despite being in shock, kissed him back like he'd never kissed him before. He could feel Dan's hand on his back so he placed his in Dan's hair. He smelled amazing, like the sweet smell of honey, like freshly cut grass, like the very smell of love.

And then Dan pulled away, looking for a moment, at Phil's ocean blue eyes, and then to the camera.
'Does that answer your question?' Dan smirked and said 'Anyway goodbye internet' before shutting of the camera. Before he could say anything else, he was lying down next to Phil, who had wrapped his arms around him and whispered against his neck.
'I'm proud of you'