Get To Know You - Spoby

Toby

I head over to Yvonne's house and while I'm driving I start to think of Spencer. What would it be like texting her if I start another relationship with Yvonne. I highly doubt Yvonne would let me talk to her. She's to paranoid even though anyone that knows me, knows I hate cheaters. Does Yvonne even know me that well? Of course she does is Yvonne! But does she really? She didn't even know I hate cheaters as she always tries to get me away from other girls? Maybe she's just paranoid, she loves me that's all. Does she love you? Yes. Really? Really. I don't think so. Shut up brain. No. UGHHHHH!!!

I'm an over thinker. My brain likes to have random conversations with me. More like fights. I think something and then my brain thinks the opposite.

I know Yvonne's door and wait. Two minutes later the door is open and there stands Yvonne with her hair curled, makeup done, a red dress showing a little cleavage, high heels and a scent of flowers fill the air. I'm kinda speechless. I don't understand why she got all dressed up. I'm literally wearing black jeans, a white adidas top and my white Gazelle shoes. My hair isn't even jelled. I only put on a little aftershave but I always do that going out. I kinda feel bad.

She stands out of the way, allowing me to enter her home. It seems cleaner than she usually has it. I think she put a lot of effort into me coming over. I'm kinda nervous now. I definitely know that "the subject" is gonna come up. What am I gonna do? I don't know if I'm ready. I kinda like the way things are going with Spencer! It's nice, but I know I can't do that anymore if I start dating Yvonne again. She won't allow it. I could keep it secret, but for how long. I would feel bad. I'm not ready. Am I ready. She's so beautiful and I do kinda miss her. I'm ready.....am I? Oh god, what am I gonna do?

"Hello Toby??? Are you In there!?"

"Wh-what...sorry what were you saying?" I give Yvonne a confused look. She just rolls her eyes and turns on the tv.

Shit I was too busy dazing.  I sit beside her, not too close but she quickly slides up right next to me. I nervously smile but I think Yvonne thought it was a smile of enjoyment as the next thing you know she had her head resting on my shoulder. I begin to fee very uncomfortable but I don't want to move her so I just sit their praying she will take her head off me.

"I miss this...." Yvonne's words catch me off guard and I jump in my seat. Her head removes from the shoulders quickly and she stares at me, waiting for me to say something. I need to say something, anything. The words just won't come out. I knew this was going to happen, but I was trying to plan it out.

"Do you miss me Toby?" She tilts her head and gives me a look of awe, I think she knows this was definitely a surprise to me., though it wasn't really.  "I ah....yeah I miss you." The words splutter out and I almost look shocked that they did come out.  Yvonne takes my hand and I stare into her eyes. "B...but can we wait, just a while I um, I'm dealing with some stuff right now and I think we should wait."

Yvonne nods, but I can tell she's disappointed . Her hands loosen from mine and she turns away. "Yvonne, I do miss you, but I can't be in a relationship right now. My sister, I have to be there for her right now. I can't be at two places at once." I gently say as I take her hand. She smiles and nods and lets out a tiny "I understand".

What have I done?