Being Corbyn Besson's Bestfriend (completed)//Zach Herron Fanfic

Part 10

ava's pov

we drive to what seems like a private airport. AND WE GET ON A FRICKIN PRIVATE JET I FREAK OUT. they put our bags on the plane and we take off. we fly all night and finally get to a hotel. i go straight to my room with my bags and fall asleep. i wake up in the morning and search my bag for my medicine. and that's when i realize i forgot my medicine. 

i'm freaking out at this point. i know in about an hour i'll be grouchy and i'll hate everyone if i don't have my pills. i check my whole room and don't find anyone. i go down into the lobby about an hour later from searching from my pills. i see everyone else is eating and i grab my food and sit down. but that's when i feel it. i can feel my mind take over my body and i start getting more and more irritated. i try to take deep breaths but i can't breath. i realize everyone is looking at me. they ask me if i'm ok and i say i'm fine with no emotions whatsoever. 

after they are done eating they ask me if i'm gonna finish my food. i yell back no i'm not hungry anymore that's why i stopped eating. i realize i'm not myself anymore. i run upstairs to my room before i could say another word. then when i'm by myself i think of the times when i had no one. i get really depressed. i don't talk to anyone for the rest of the day. after awhile, corbyn walks in.

"what do you want?" i say

"i just wanted to talk"

"well maybe i don't wanna talk have you ever thought of that? huh?"

"are you ok?"

"yes i'm fine! WHY DOES EVERYONE KEEP ASKING ME THAT??" 

"hey its ok"

"NO ITS NOT CORBYN. please just leave me alone" i say as i'm crying "CORBYN LEAVEEEE!"

he leaves and then i'm alone again. 

*****DONT READ IF YOU DONT LIKE SUICIDAL SCENES I WANTED THIS TO BE MORE REALISTIC SO YEAH*****

i notice in my bag is a razor. i think in my head that's sharp enough. i get up and take the razor and go into the tub leaving the bathroom door open. i eventually pull out the razor blade. as i'm about to cut my wrists when i hear someone open my door uninvited. i see his face drop when he sees the razor. he tells me to stop and i do. he gets me out of the bath and makes me explain everything to him. and i do. he tells me that tmrw just him and i will go to the doctor without the boys knowing. in the end i had to thank daniel seavey for saving my life.

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towards the end this was hard for me to write. it was so sad. but comment on who should be her love interests. like should it be a love triangle or what? comment!!