Dear Matthew~ complete

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I go in my room when I get home and I cry and cry my guts out until I can't cry anymore,how could Matthew lie to me like this?... it hurts so much,deep down inside my heart is probably half purple and half rotten from how much he has hurt me....

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Rebecca walks in my room as I'm laying in bed with my headphones in, she comes close to my bed wearing Matthew's jacket,of course. " Val? Is Matthew gonna hate me since you two got into a argument?" I stare at her and push up my glasses " umm no...he just needs sometime to think about what he's done" I say. Rebecca stares at the floor and squeezes Matthew's jacket as if she's know him for her whole life. " Rebecca can you just leave I'm not in the mood" she moves away from my bed and shuts the door behind her as she leaves.

How can my little sister be so butt hurt over somethings that's not even her problem?

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I cry myself to sleep and begin to dream....
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Age-15-losing it to Matthew
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I'm at Matthew's house. It's just us two alone, his parents are out of town with his siblings... we lay on his bed as we watch a movie together. 
"Val baby,you know that your the one right?" I look up to see his face and say" what are you talking about?" He smiles and bends down a little to kiss me...soft...and sweet... he smiles as he pulls his lips away from mine " I want you to be my first...you know..." I smile and say "what tell me?" He smiles and looks down for a bit and says "I want you to be the first girl I do my first and last" my stomach starts to feel funny,what if I get pregnant or we get caught? ... " but Matthew we are only fifteen...we can't just do it now...how about we wait" he puts one hand on my cheek and looks down for a bit and then meets my eyes" Val baby if you really loved me you would let me...us me and you have the opportunity to do this now" I look at Matthew and study him" but Matthew I do love you and I want to be your first too but not here not now" I get up from his bed quickly as he gets up and catches my arm " Val don't go...just do it for us me and you" he kisses me again and as he does...I do it. I give myself to Matthew...he takes off my shirt as I continue to kiss him...and before we know we hear car honking out side and Matthew quickly gets up from his bed with a blanket rapped around his lower body and says " damn shit! It's my parents...... ever since that night I've regretted losing my virginity to Matthew. I mean after all he's been with other girls......

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The next morning I awaken to the smell of pancakes. I get out of bed and go downstairs and find my friend Tatum in the kitchen with Rebecca sitting in front of a plate of pancakes. They look up when they see me enter the room..." hey Val want some" Tatum asks, I smile and say" no I'm good...where's my mom and when did you get here?" She looks at me and says " oh she asked me to come over while you were sleeping because she had an early work shift today" I smile and lay my head on the counter as Tatum rubs my back and says
" is it Matthew again?" I sigh and look up and out the window as I say " yep"....

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