Dear Matthew~ complete

10-Matthew

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I feel so fucking stupid after what I did to Valerie...I lay in bed and lay my arm on my forehead and look at the ceiling and think of what I should do to fix things.

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1:00AM
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I call Valerie three times and no answer...shit what if I really messed up this time...why couldn't Danielle just not have texted me that day...(buzz buzz) my phone vibrates and I pick it up thinking it's a text message from Valerie but it's not. It's from Danielle...

Danielle- hey Matthew I'm riding around town tonight...I was hoping you could tag along bunny boo?💗

No...no! I can't I'm just going to block her ass I mean...I know I messed up but it's her damn fault I could lose the one thing I love and care about right now.

I text her back and say

Matthew- sorry Danielle I'm not going...and don't bother me anymore...I'm blocking you.

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After I block Danielles number,I decide to do something for Val...I go outside and and shut the door behind me, making my way to Valerie's house.

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2:00AM
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I knock on Valerie's window as I look inside her room...she suddenly looks up as I tap her window again,she sees me and gets up from her bed and comes toward the window" Matthew what are you doing here?" She whispers as I climb in her room... " Val look I'm sorry...I'm such a dick okay...so I came over here to say that I'm sorry" my eyes start to burn and I scrunch up my nose....I'm a guy,guys aren't supposed to cry are they? Unless it's for a good reason... Valerie sighs and says " baby I know your sorry,and I'm sorry for being rude and ignoring you and I know you were trying to be honest with me when I was at your house and I should have listened instead of being a bitch to you" I clear my throats and step closer to Valerie as I feel my heart beating as I get closer and closer I put both of my hand on her cheeks almost as warm as anything,and I look into her eyes and say
"Val baby...I-I love you...I love you so much,like you don't know how much I love you baby" her eyes start to tear up as she says " M-Matthew you've never said you loved me to my face before ever..." I smile and say " well I'm saying it now" Valerie smiles and hugs me tightly.

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That night I fall asleep with Valerie...my baby...my soul...my one and only,she sleeps soundly as she snuggles close to me her face close to my chest,as I kiss her forehead and go to sleep.

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In the morning I wake up and open my eyes and see Valerie sitting up in bed eating breakfast..." oh morning" she says as she continues to eat and watch tv...I pull my self up and lean on the headboard and say " what time is it?" Valerie reaches for her phone and says
"Twelve o'clock" my heart starts to beat fast " shit! I have to be home baby...my parents don't know I snuck out" Valerie pushes her glasses up on her nose and says " baby no this morning I called your mom and told her,she said she was okay with it" my heart suddenly slows down and I take a deep breath and let it out as Valerie says " my mom doesn't know about you staying here so your going to have to leave before she gets here so it won't look obvious that you stayed" I smile and kiss her cheek and say " k baby"... "do you want me to go make you breakf-"  Valerie says as suddenly Rebecca comes into the room...she gasps and says "Matthew!!!" She runs to the bed and jumps on it and hugs me tightly...hearing her breath close to my ear she whispers " please don't go...your my Matthew" I smile and say " I won't little tike...I won't " Valerie smiles and says "becca can you give us some space?" She laughs and says" fine but don't make out please"... me and Valerie start to laugh...I've never felt so happy to be with Valerie in my life...even though she still is one of my seconds.
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