Dear Matthew~ complete

16-valerie

Valerie pov
1-week later
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I take off my shoes and go find Rebecca. I go to her room and I find her with parisol playing on her new I phone 📱 they both look up as I enter the room. Parisol suddenly gets up from Rebecca's bed and says " becca maybe your sister here can take us...won't you?" Parisol says smiling at me in a wicked way,she may be Matthew's sister but she is sure creepy and mean. I fake a smile and say "where do you guys wanna go?" Rebecca sprints off of her bed and says " to the pool" that's when my fake smile fades. " why would you guys wanna go there?" Parisol rolls her eyes "duhh to swim you idiot!" I almost choke her when my phone vibrates and I check it.

Austin- Valerie me and Matt are going to the mall and Matthew. you,wanna come?

As I'm texting Austin back parisol says "well yes or no hoe?" I stare at her and try not to be mean, why would she call me a hoe? " sorry kids I can't I'm going to the mall with your brother and Matt and Austin" parisol smiles and says "ahhh my brother also your boyfriend, fine I'll let this slip this time only because he's my brother" I walk out of Rebecca's room and text Austin back

Valerie- yea sure I'll be outside waiting for you guys

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Austin and Matthew and Matt pull in my drive way. I make my way towards the truck as I see Haley and her new friend Brianna walk In front of my house,they both stare at me as Haley spots the boys and smiles and waves as does Brianna. Sluts. I get into the truck and Austin turns to face me and says " just ignore them none of us said hi back to her" I smile and say " yea I know" I turn to look a Matthew as he looks out the window watching Haley and Brianna walk down the street....

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The whole ride to the mall is silent except for Austin's music filling the truck. Matthew hasn't turned to look at me or any of the boys since we left my house,he's been staring out of the same window where he watched Haley and her slut of a friend walk my street... we make it to the malls parking lot as I get out of the backseat and ask Matt " what's with him?" Matt whispers back " I don't know he was fine and happy before we came here" I take a look at Matthew as he walks ahead of me with Austin just chatting it away and laughing as me and Matt stay in the back.

We make our way towards the dippin dots ice cream stand when Austin says " Val what do you want?" I smile and say " Austin no it's okay I have money" which I really don't but I want to see if Matthew will offer to pay. It's just a test... Austin smiles and says " are you sure I got you" I smile and say " no I'm sure" I slightly turn my head to face Matthew as he stands beside me pretending like he isn't even listening. ( why is he ignoring me?).

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After the mall the boys take me home, I get out of the truck as Austin and Matt turn around and say bye. They both turn to look at Matthew as he barley even says a word, almost a whisper "bye" he turns back around and faces the window and I get out of the truck quickly.

I go inside and head straight To my room and write a letter

Dear Matthew~ what's happening? What's going on? What have I done?... you've straight up ignored me today you didn't even say a single word to me... I stop as I wipe my tears away from my eyes as they water up... Matthew please I'm writing this because I'm scared and I'm worried about you... about us.......
Valerie.R~

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That night I wait and wait for a text or a phone call but nothing... and that's when I start to panic out of my mind, I start to wander things like...where could he be? Or who is he with? Or what could he be doing? Or is he okay?.....
I lay in my bed and stare at the ceiling,listening to the sound of nothing silence, all I can hear is the traffic of the cars outside and nothing else,just pure silence...

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2:00Am
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I lay awake still and it's really late to me I should be sleeping but I don't, I stay awake still thinking about Matthew. I turn to my side and finally fall asleep but this time... thinking if Matthew non stop.

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It's eight in the morning when I wake up to the sounds of some one going through my closet. I open one eye and see Rebecca going through my picture box with the pictures of me and Matthew... she picks my favorite one up... where Matthew kisses me with his football helmet on. She smiles and holds it against her chest. I love Rebecca but I wish she didn't like my boyfriend... but right now I'm too sleepy to even bother telling her to put it back, i gently and slowly close my eye again and I can see just a little that Rebecca puts the picture back and leaves my room.

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"Valerie??..." I hear someone call my name out... " Val!" I quickly open my eyes and see Austin sitting on my floor. " Austin what are you doing here? And in my room?" He laughs and says " your mom let me in and Rebecca said you were still asleep" I roll my eyes of course she would. " why are you still in bed it's one o'clock in the afternoon?" Austin says. My eyes go wide as I quickly check my phone... but nothing. I put my phone back down and sit up, " Austin... c-can I ask you something?" He smiles and says " anything what's up" I take a breath and sigh at the same time " have you heard anything from Matthew lately?". Austins smiles fades as he takes a look down at his jeans "um Val there... there are somethings that you wouldn't understand well,I mean you would but you would be pissed off if you knew" I suddenly have interest in what Austin had to say.i give him a look as he says "what I'm just saying" he makes both of his shoulders go up like if he didn't know."trust Austin??? That's what I'm saying do you believe in a thing called trust?" He suddenly puts one hand on his chin and says "oh umm let me think, yeah!" He laughs a little as I put both of my hands on my forehead and sigh in annoyance. " well Austin tell me what you know about trust" he suddenly perks up as if he knew the whole story... " to me trust is like a privilege,like you have to earn someone's trust or gain what ever,same shit but anyways like trust is something you have in some one you love a lot like your mom for instance or me and Matt as your guy friends or Tatum you trust her with a secret... like that's what trust is to me. Why do you ask?" I look up and see that Austin's face expression has changed into a serious type of look like a look that says ( what's the matter?) I stare down at my blanket and play with a loose string... "well it's about Matthew, I mean I trust him but then sometimes I don't like I do don't get me wrong but he promised me he'd always be honest with me and so far that's a lie...and he told me that he would never hurt me or could and I believe him one hundred percent but then I start thinking things,especially what happened yesterday I mean he shut me out and I don't know why I didn't do anything,so like I guess what I'm trying to say is trusting someone is vary difficult if you think about it" Austin gives me another look and quickly says "Val every thing will be okay I would say trust me but you know it's a hard thing" Austin laughs as I crack a small smile. What could Matthew possibly be doing?....

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