Tangled Web (A Black Butler Fan Fiction)

Chapter Twenty-Seven

I woke up the day of Ciel's funeral in the library with a book in my hand and Lizzie goen from my side. Maybe she woke up early and went to her bed for when Mother and Father came for her. I looked out the window and noticed it was just before sunrise. I closed the book and walked out of the library to the terrace door. I wanted to see the sunrise first hand. Maybe it will send some sort of sign that everything will make sense eventually.

The sun came up but the sunrise wasn't as immaculate as it should have been. It was going to be a sunny morning for Ciel's funeral day. How ironic. Ciel was one of the darkest people I knew. The day reminded me of Madame Red's funeral. She was wearing white like every other woman, but the color never fit her like red did.

I changed into my new black dress and did my hair into a side-ponytail. The curls cascaded down my right shoulder. I slipped on the shawl and made sure I could keep my demon's mark covered at all times. Since trying to figure out what actually happened to Ciel, I noticed my demon's mark stayed. Was that supposed to happen? I scanned myself in the mirror on my vanity. It was definitely something appropriate for a funeral. Still, it seemed like I wasn't going to Ciel's funeral.

"Selena," Lizzie called from behind my door. I thought it was odd that she wasn't busting through it today. "Selena, are you ready yet?"

I turned to my door and made sure my demon's mark was still covered. When I was positive, I walked to my bedroom door and opened it. Lizzie stood there clad in black. Her shoes were black and her dress still had ruffles and lace but it was still black. At least her eyes weren't red...yet.

"Lizzie," I said as I looked at her. "Are you ready?"

She looked at me. I tried to show some feeling for her. I knew she was wondering where my emotions went since learning about Ciel's death. The truth is, I forgot about my emotions. I don't know how it happened but it did and I was wondering if, after the funeral, I would remember them and feel again. I know Lizzie would like that a lot.

"Yes," she said solemnly. "I'm ready."

With the way she said that, I felt something again. I almost felt a tear escape. When I heard her defeated voice shaking and almost close to tears. This was it, I thought; this was going to be the last time we would see Ciel forever.

I walked with her to the carriage, ignoring my parents just as they ignore me. They both stared at me like I wasn't a Midford like them. I ignored them as we got into the same carriage. I was surprised they didn't take one and have Lizzie and I take another. But, no, I thought as I thought about it on the way to the funeral, they want the facade that we are a proper family.

The carriage stopped at the same place Madame Red's funeral was. It was the same marble building with the same flowers lining the path to the doors. I got out last--I was sort of forced to by my father--and stared at the place where everyone who was close to Ciel could see him for the last time.

"Come on, Selena," Lizzie said as she took my hand and guided me into the building.

My parents stared at Lizzie and glared at me. I ignored them. Being emotionless has given me time to step away from my life and think. My parents have always put Lizzie before me, their oldest. I might not ever hear the reasoning behind my parents' actions, but, at this point, I don't care.

I slipped out of Lizzie's hand and stopped just before we were fully in the sanctuary. I slowly walked up to where the body was supposed to be. My parents and Lizzie were already up there like they were a family without me. I stood back and watched them. When they stepped away, I slowly walked up, taking in everything and wondering if this is what my funeral would look like. I closed my eyes momentarily, thinking: No, my parents wouldn't have a funeral like this. They would have one just like this for Lizzie though.