Dear person that doesn't even talk to me anymore,
I'm doing horrible if you wanted to know. My life has never reached something so deep before and you're not even around to help. I don't cry as much at night like how I use to, but when i do, I cry like if someone shot my whole entire family. I cry hysterically. Like everything that has ever happened in my life has all come out in the one moment. I can't control it.. The thoughts in my head have gotten to me to. And this time they're taughting me so much I started saying the things they tell me aloud. Everytime I try to get better I break down deeper and more damaging. One week I tried to forget about all of the bad things and tried to make everything happy, I ended up putting a lighter to the sole of my feet by the end week. I burnt them so bad I had a problem walking. It didn't bother me though because the pain was the only thing telling me I'm still alive, sadly. I'm a wreck & no one can stop the distruction I'm doing to myself. There was only one person that could, you. But I have no clue where you are anymore. WHERE ARE YOU?!?! I NEED YOU MORE THAN EVER AND YOUR TOO BUSY TRYING TO FIT IN AND HAVE HIGHER CLASS FRIENDS NOT EVEN REALIZING THE ONE THAT HAS ALWAYS BEEN BY YOUR SIDE IS ROTTING. I'm rottting. Do you even notice? Do you notice the depressed person in the corner that is mentally screaming for someone to help. DO YOU? Of course you don't. It's okay because now I know you're just like the rest of them, you'll only care when it's too late and I'm found swinging from the rope around my neck or flying from the building I jumped from.
So that's how I'm feeling if you even cared anymore.
