I have completely lost you.... I have no clue where you are. I released a sigh of relief that day I felt nothing when I looked into your eyes the other day, but I was also very confused why I felt nothing. But then I realized, it wasn't you that I was looking at. I looked into the eyes of a confused male teenager that is trying to access every little group of people in order to fit in. I saw a lost puppy who has no say in whats going on but still goes with it just because he's too afraid to be left. I saw a boy who's whole life changed in a blink of an eye. It wasn't you. When I looked into your eyes, I looked into your eyes, I didn't gaze into them and find the spark of excitement I usually see. No care, no heart, no excitement, no adrenaline. Dull. Even reminded me of a rusty penny. It kills me to see this in you. Out of all people I was hoping it wouldn't happen to you, but aye I guess I didn't hope enough. What's even worse about this is the damage that I know is going to happen when this all blows up. The way you react to certain things is like you cannot take it and I know you'll feel so lonely and so betrayed. But I'm here. I never left and I never will. No matter what happens between us, likign you more than a friend or not, I will always put your needs in fron of my own. Always & Forever.
