This is my 100th attempt to try and get over you again. People say I love you , but I don't want to believe it. My strategy to try to get over you is by liking other guys. The only problem is is that I can never see a guy more than a friend becuase of you. Everytime I try my favorite memory with you pops up; and there I go, mezmorize by you all over again. I have tried to like about 10 guys just so I can get over you, some of them I actually liked. None of them worked. There's this one guy that I like more than the average human being that's not you. But I don't know what I feel because I still think of you while I'm trying to enjoy my moments with him. I've only hung out with him like seven times but when I hangout with him I almost feel like I'm haning out with you. That's a first. Usually every guy I hang out with has ZERO comparison to you, but he has something, something that I'm hoping will grow more and more. He's different then the others because the last time I hing out with you I actually thought of him a little. Most of the time when we're together it's just you and me and no one else in my mind. But this time there he was, his pineapple scent as well. The last time I hung out with him I ws nothing but hyped;just like the way I was when I started loving you. Liking you I meant. I feel so much feelings so him I can't wait to see him everyday especially the day we usually hang out. I honestly don't know what I feel. I'm afraid one day I'll see the both you at the same time. I'll probably have a heart attack from all the emotions and feelings I'll be having. I'm also terrifiesd I'll pick you over him. I don't want to pick you. You got over me easily and I'm still struggling to get over you. I'm losing my mind becuase of you and something inside of me is enjoying the fact that I am. But no more, time to finally move on. Hopefully it actually happens.
