One Minute

1. Blurry lines of Reality

Everyone says we come in this world with out fate already written and destiny mapped out so does that mean we are destined to suffer? Maybe yes, or not. Who decides? Surely not the one who gave us life. Maybe it's the path we choose or the decision we make. Maybe it's all us. We are breeding a monster inside us, which eventually consume us whole.

The moment we feel a slight shift in our life the monster snarls and growls. Feeding us thoughts that leads us to darkness, misery and pain.

But are we really engulfed in complete darkness? Don't people always say after darkness there comes light. There is always a silver lining which reminds us what we are and what we can be, that nothing is finite and just like happiness, pain doesn't last too.

I never believed it but, I found my light after falling in the depth of darkness. It was like an awakening of sort. Awakening of my soul. For the very first time. Though I still suffer but now it's bearable because now when I look at my lights I get the strength to fight this sadness and I feel a new determined will building inside the thick walls of my stoic heart. But it was not easy. It is never easy. The path I walked, took me from highest peak of depression to lowest self esteem to death to darkness then? 

Back to life.

It all begin five months ago when I decided it was time to let go of the life I was holding onto. The moment has come when I couldn't bear to breathe even for a moment  and all it took was a minute, just one minute to end something that was so precious to many. One minute, all it took one freaking minute and then there was darkness. Complete darkness.