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Wobbly Knees.

I remember that night at the game, you were there for your uncle and I was there to work; But oh my God, I had no clue that you would be there and I didn't know that you would look so good, but you did. The second I seen you come around the corner, I stopped dead in my tracks as I tried to regain my breath. I think you knew exactly what you had done because you flashed your goofy smile that makes my knees a little weaker and never slowed your pace towards me. You said my name, I greeted you back, you said you were sick and I laughed because your voice gave it away. I laughed and watched as you smiled, oh my God, that smile that causes coffee eyes to light up and the one where you get little wrinkles beside your eyes, the one that I didn't get to see that often, the one that makes my heart almost stop beating but also speed up. I don't remember much of that night besides me trying to restrain myself from grabbing your hand, or kissing you, and hugging you because you were my home. I remember before I left that you asked if I was "okay" and gave me a hug. Was I "okay", honestly no, I was not "okay". I don't know if I will ever be "okay" again as long as I know she is with you. I remember how the next night you had texted me saying how nice it was to see me and how being around me and what you "once had" and how you wanted to kiss me while I was focused on the people passing by; but oh my God, I wish you had, I don't care if I was with him, I wanted you and he was talking to her either way. Maybe if you had I wouldn't be sitting here in math class thinking about the way your lips would feel against mine and about if you would be nervous or not and I'm sorry I'm having these thoughts because you're probably thinking about her instead of me and although I probably deserve it, I don't want to think of you kissing her.
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