Belonging to Him

Eight- Kael's

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                    It's funny how the one thing that rises first thing in the morning is usually forgotten as the day goes by. Busy people walk the streets and as long as the sun rises every day and sets at every night, they get on with their lives. The sun is always up, but we hardly acknowledge it. What it does, now interests me. It gives life and light to the world. But, aren't there places where it can't reach? Like the mysteries and secrets of the world.

That's what Kael was. He was the dark and dangerous mystery that I wanted to, but couldn't reach. He had secrets; deep and almost sacred. I wanted to know them. But were they worth figuring out? Were they worth changing my life over? I felt they would. It felt that as long as I didn't know anything, I would be safe. But maybe that wasn't what I wanted. Maybe I wanted to know. Maybe I didn't want to play it safe.

Not with him.

He wasn't safe. I just knew that. Part of me wasn't either; it was the part of me that I never wanted to be. I kept pushing that part deep inside, keeping her away from the surface, and I never thought I'd meet someone who could reach that very well hidden part of me. But he could. Kael could and he brought out that side whenever I stood too close. Wasn't I already standing on a thin wire? Wasn't that what sanity was; a very thin wire? I feared, that if I lost balance, I would lose control and that part that I never wanted revealed, would be open for him to see.

Dressed up for school, I looked out my window to see him across my street, leaned against the car; obviously waiting, his eyes directly at my window. If I didn't know any better, I'd think he could see me even though the distance was too far for the naked eye. I sighed. I ran down the stairs, Natalie was ahead. I heard voices around me, but they sounded faint. I wasn't myself, I was lost.

Before I buckled into the passenger's seat of Natalie's car, I shot Kael a look. A look of angered question, what are you doing here?

I hated it. I hated meeting him, I hated having the same class with him, I hate that since he showed up in my life all I've ever been able to think about was him. I hated it. I hated it so much that I loved it.

What?

I loved it. I did. I could feel that I loved it. I knew that I loved it. I loved thinking about him almost all of the time, I loved having a class with him, I loved meeting him and I loved liking him. Why I loved it was beyond me.

But I also knew what I hated. I hated having to admit it. I hated knowing that I would soon have to face my emotions someday and I hated knowing that no matter what happened; I couldn't ever resist him.

"Tramp," Natalie called form the driver's seat.

"Yeah," I turned my attention to her

"You haven't been listening to me for the past twenty minutes. What's wrong with you?" she snapped

"Nothing, I'm-" I reached for the door handle and pulled it open, stepping out.

"Are you crazy!?" she screeched but her voice was behind me; far, far behind me.

I felt pain, suddenly. It shot throughout my right arm and then I felt the hot, cemented ground collide roughly with my back before I knew what was happening. I was rolling on the ground, pain shooting everywhere on my body before I stopped. I was laying on my right side now, black spots dancing in my vision.

"Jaymes!" I didn't know that voice, "Jaymes!" it was closer to me now, and footsteps were coming. A dark shadow clouded above me as I felt my body being turned on my back, I would've flinched if I could control my facial expression. "Jaymes!" I didn't know this voice. Other faces were above me, they were student's faces but my vision wasn't clear. I was in school. Different voices and different faces were the last thing I heard and saw before unconsciousness took over.