Belonging to Him

Eighteen - Troubled

Chapter 18- Troubled

   I inhaled a lungful of air with my eyes closed, my fingers quivered. The truth of my whole life was kept from me. And now I knew. How it hurt to know that the people who were supposed to be helping me find myself decided to leave me to do it on my own. It gave a sense of power for me, yes, but it didn't help the emotion of being betrayed.

My eyes slipped open and landed on the clock on the left side of the wall. I was basically glaring at it as I saw both hands on the twelve. My shift was just about over. I took in another breath, walking forward only to grab my bag and walk past who I was supposed to call my Auntie; the only blood-related relative I had, and I couldn't even call her family.

"Jaymes, you can't hide from this" she said, following after me, the book in her hands

"Watch me" I replied

She grabbed my arm, turning me to face her, "Jaymes, you have to listen to me"

I snatched my arm back, facing her completely, "I have been listening" I seethed, my eyes stinging once more "I've been waiting for years for somebody to explain to me what was wrong with my body, my mind, me! And you! You just stood in the sidelines watching as I grew up. Watching me suffer! Watching me crying, feeling so confused! You didn't do anything. And whenever you did, you charmed me to forget them!" tears rolled down my cheek, the memories that she had charmed me to forget replayed in my mind

"Jaymes, this is your fate," she said, her eyebrows furrowed in an emotion. Whether it was pity or confusion, I couldn't bring myself to care.

"No; that isn't! That is a book!" I jabbed my finger in its direction "Filled with stories and crap! This," I pointed at me "is flesh and blood. I'm a human and that is what I'll always be. I am not what that thing says I am and I am not in any way related to you! So, sue me but I refuse to believe in anything that had just happened!" even though I knew the truth, I couldn't believe it. I just couldn't.

"Jaymes, ye have to listen to what I have to say" she countered

"Yer reasons for storing knowledge not meant for ye to disappoints me in greater ways not ye are able to comprehend" I didn't know what language I was speaking, but at the same time I did "ye kept my entire life a secret from me, Althea" I pulled my car door open "I doubt I can find it in my heart to forgive ye for that"

I pushed myself into the vehicle, backed up and drove far away from her. From away from the truth, far away from what I knew, from what was making me know things, from everything that seemed to be clinging onto the fact that I knew I wasn't and never had been human.

It seemed only minutes that I was in my vehicle; parked at the side of the empty road, but I knew it had been hours. Kael had called my phone a thousand times, but I couldn't answer. My stomach growled, but after I ignored it for a while, it stopped. It was cold with the heater off, but I couldn't mind the temperature.

How could I think of things such as being hungry or cold when my mind was so pre-occupied with the thoughts of my biological parents? What they had done for me, to keep me alive. The necklace; my fingers wrapped around it, was the sole reason for the curse. But it wasn't anymore. Now that I knew, it was my life, my existence fuelling the fire of the curse.

My life was the reason why shifters mates couldn't shift. The only way to end such a powerful curse was to end my existence. Is this what Kael had wanted? Is this the reason why he was with me? Was he only supposed to kill me?  Why hadn't he done it yet? There were so many chances for him to, we were alone more than thrice.